Teach Me [COMPLETED✔]

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Chris

It was uncomfortable, or it should be.

The moment I strode in the kitchen, I had almost lost it seeing Aspen standing near Theo. The moment she turned to see me, all I had said was on the edge of my mind, words burning on the tip of my tongue. Yet I couldn't say anything, couldn't even begin to apologize to her.

I knew we both needed to talk, to slash out all the cruel words I had told her from the beginning because I had been wrong. I had been ignorant to many things I knew I shouldn't have and now here we stood with a conversation that would get pushed behind until Theo left.

I hadn't expected him, fuck he hadn't even called to tell me he was coming over. I had just seen him hours ago, had fucking catched up with him but even my parents didn't visit me or call me more than once each month. Not that I cared, I knew they had lives of their own, all of my friends did but fuck why now?

Theo claimed he was in the neighborhood, a lie. I knew it because, one he lived an hour from here and two the only person that lived here was me. The city was big, but Theo lived more into the actual city than I did. This was the suburbs, more calm streets than the chaotic streets downtown.

I could see the lie even better when I saw the eyes that pierced into Aspen. I knew those eyes, had seen them countless times when I hung out with him. I hadn't minded him coming, but the moment I saw the fuck eyes he gave Aspen, I snapped.

The man in me, the one that had taken Aspen wanted to push him out of my house. To keep Aspen out of his perverted mind because I knew what he was thinking, at one point in life I thought the same. Had actually thought about Aspen in such a matter but that was before I- before everything.

The more I spent alone in this house, the more I realized what an actual ass I was. Hours, it had been hours yet it felt longer. It was a twisting pain thinking it was all over, that I wouldn't see her again. Bringing up her mother had been wrong, thinking about myself had fucked it up even more.

From the very beginning I had known what she represented, I knew there wasn't an impure thought in her head. I knew what Esther had told me, maybe not the complete reason for her to push Aspen into a religious school. But I did know that Aspen was Holy and I had smeared that and dumped it like it was nothing.

It was stupid to think about my reputation only. Aspen also had one, small but she had one. Aspen had a mind of her own, had her own thinking. To think of her as a child was wrong because she was far from being a child. She may have been shielded away from certain aspects of society but there was the mind in her that spoke with years worth of knowledge.

In the end, we both had to blame and I was here more to blame for it all.

I mean, would it be that bad to have a kid? With her?

Maybe I could be a father, fuck I knew I could be one. But the only thought that came to me was the age, the fact that Aspen was young. She had asked me to teach her and I had done it then she would leave. She had said that we were done, yet I couldn't help but picture more.

And that small logical part of me knew that I should push her, to let her know life with someone else. For her to see the wonders of life, to travel and experience new foods and cultures and her getting pregnant would halt her growing. But I just couldn't... When I told her to take the pill, part of me wasn't completely thinking about myself but also about her future.

I couldn't make her forget all the words, but I could fix it. I would fix it as soon as Theo made his way out.

Out of the corner of my eye, I saw Theo shift in his seat as Aspen reached for the bowl of salad. My gaze watching every muscle move as he took her neckline, seeing his eyes lower to the dip as he licked his own lips. "Theo," I snapped at him before he could so much as see more of her.