Self-Reflection

Page 5

Naging kalmado ako habang tumitingin ako sa kalangitan tinitignan ang mga nagniningning na mga bituin. Kay ganda nila pagmasdan tila ba sinasabi nitong hindi ako nag-iisa.

Nagpatuloy ang pagbabalik ng mga alaala ng nakaraan. And so I opened my eyes to breath. I get the untouched glass of milk that that I have at the table beside me and after drinking that and I immediately felt  relaxed.

And again I close my eyes and the memories of the past continue to get back.

I saw myself as a child sitting at the big couch. I was looking and hoping that someone will opened the door and will say to me "Baby, were home" I remember that time, I perfect my test and I'm so excited to let my parents see the result. So after school, I immediately run to the parking lot since I know our driver is there waiting for me. I get in our car and our driver immediately drive back. 

I was so happy that time and I'm so excited to see their reactions once they see my test results. After going back I immediately put my bag in my room and change my clothes. I take the exam's sheet out in my bag at lumabas sa aking kwarto. I sit in our couch and I saw the wall clock located in our living area it was 6:00 in the evening. So I expected that in any time my parents will be home. And so I wait and wait until one of our maid named Lily, which I called Nanay Lily called me and told me to eat my dinner. I was so shocked. I didn't  even know na mag-aalas-otse na pala ng gabi, hindi ko man lang namalayan ang oras.

At first, humindi ako because I want to have a dinner with my parents. I want to have my dinner with the most important people in my life and tell them about my day in school but Nanay Lily insist na kumain na raw ako dahil baka malipasan ako ng gutom and so I obeyed her.

I eat my dinner all alone in the spacious dining area. It was so quiet and I hate that.
I hate that kind of atmosphere it makes me feel alone, it makes me feel sad. So to avoid staying in there I decided to finish my dinner quickly..

I put my plates sa lababo at agad na pumunta sa sala. Naghintay ako. Naghintay nang naghintay at sa patuloy na pagtakbo at paglipas ng oras, patuloy rin napapalitan ng lungkot ang kasiyahang aking nadarama......

Hinintay ko sila sa pag-aakalang darating sila pero hindi ko inaakalang pagkadismaya lamang ang aking mararamdaman hanggang sa huling minuto nang araw na iyon....
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Hindi ko naisip na ang paghihintay ko sa araw na iyon, ang pag-aakalang maibabahagi ko ang kasiyahang aking nadarama ay mauuwi lamang pala...

....,sa wala.

‿︵‿︵‿︵୨˚̣̣̣͙୧ - - - - - ୨˚̣̣̣͙୧‿︵‿︵‿︵

Note: Hey, one facts about me is I'm into stars and moon I really love them a lot specially if I feel unmotivates and sad just looking at them makes me feel at ease.....

"The most important moment for someone specially if they feel good is to share it with someone important to them, in this way they will know that they are not alone and someone is there for them thinking about their whole being."- Author-nim