Hi, it's me again. Do you have a great day hopefully you have. It's a new day anyway, but for me this day is like yesterday, nothing's new.. Nothing's special at all....
Alam mo ba yung feeling na kagigising mo lang pero parang pagod ka pa rin without doing anything.. Lack of motivation kung baga.. Well, that's what I'm feeling right now. Nakakapagod yung ganitong pakiramdam na parang isa ka na lang robot na naka-programmed to do this and that. Yung wala ka nang kalayaan na gawin ang gusto mo dahil they have rules na dapat mong sundin.
Na dapat gawin mo ang sasabihin nila, na dapat lagi kang magaling sa lahat, na bawal kang magkamali dahil sa kapakanan nila. Bakit ganon, lagi kong tinatanong sa sarili ko kung bakit ako nabuhay ng ganito. Mabuhay na parang isang bagay na kailangang sumunod sa gusto nila.
Isang bagay na ipinapakita nila sa iba upang mas umangat sila, upang masabi sa kanila ng iba na perpekto sila.
Gusto kong sabihin sa kanila, ang saloobin ko.
Gusto kong iparamdam ang nasa-saloob ko at ipakita na pagod na pagod na akong maging sunod-sunuran sa kanila.
Ipakita na hindi ako isang bagay na kailangan lang nila para mas umangat sila sa iba.
Dahil tao ako at hindi isang trophy na naaalala lang nila kapag kailangan nila.
Isang taong may pakiramdam at nakakaramdam din ng sakit.
Sakit na alam kong hindi nila nakikita dahil abala sila sa mga papuri ng iba.
‿︵‿︵‿︵୨˚̣̣̣͙୧ - - - - - ୨˚̣̣̣͙୧‿︵‿︵‿︵
Note: Everyone wants to feel love sino ba naman ang hindi. Kaya sana hanggang maaga pa ipakita natin sa mga taong malalapit sa atin na mahal natin sila, bigyan natin sila ng importansya para hindi nila maramdaman na nag-iisa sila.
But then honestly, I'm not a talkative person. I prefer doing things alone than to work with someone. I'm quite an introverted person so it's hard for me to socialize with other people. I'm also not good at speaking my feelings so I rather show it. So, even though sometimes I'm mistaken as masungit na tao which is not true, I'm so lucky that I still have a few people, other than my family, which I call my friends. They have been with me for years and I'm so thankful for that.
"Love is like a medicine it can heal everything but at the same time you also need to make sure that you choose the right one for you to prevent the possible harmful effect it can cause to you"- Author-nim
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Self-Reflection
Storie breviLife Story: Book 1 Behind the beautiful smile I shown to everyone hide a deepest darkness inside of my heart. Note: Language used: Filipino and English
