If I could put it all into words

Reminiscing

The feeling that rip outs my gut making me push everyone in my town away not wanting new friends but wanting to go back to that summer cloudy nights laughing on the bed of my truck being tired but not wanting to go home sweaty football gear your hair stuck to your forehead or the first day we met the bench around the corner of our friends house u finally asked for my Name reaching your arm out to shake my hand or the day I had to go home because the street lights turned on you asked me to stay but I told u that my parents would be waiting for me yet you turned on you phone flashlight Went to the electrical box for the neighborhood and found out a way to turn the street lights off, but that's only me that remembers but once in December the cold weather the sun went down us and our friends still outside we raced to see who could run faster once I got home that night my hands felt numb from the cold. You changed you not even knowing who you are changing for ppl to like you but now I can't tell what Version of you  I fell for. now it's June of the next year you  avoiding me and I avoided you now me having to move out of the blue, I'm still wondering who even are you, I'm done falling for you but I do wanna get to know the real you