Promise (discontinued)

𝘩𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘴𝘪𝘤𝘬

play the song:
The Night We Met - Lord Huron when i tell you to :)
(a/n: it's optional and for better experience. :D)

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i was walking around the forest since i had nothing else to do, i'm still trying to get used to the kids. it seems that they're playing tag again.

when i got to the wall, i wondered what it would be like to just sit there. i'm not planning on escaping, yet.

i climbed the nearest tree to the wall and jumped to the surface of it. the cliff was pretty big, but i didn't care. it was really calming to be there.

you can play the song now!

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i suddenly wanted to cry. teardrops were leaving my eyes as my breaths were ragged and heavy.

i fell to my knees as i remembered how nice it was to be at home. i wanted to go back. i wanted to go home.

i was homesick. going to an anime world may be my dream, but there's always this small part of you that warns you not to leave your family or your home.

that small part of you was right.

as i finished crying, i sighed.

' i sure do miss home. . .', i thought to myself.

i wiped my remaining tears and rubbed my eyes to maybe hide the fact that i cried. i jumped back down as the sun started to set.

' i was crying for that long?  wow. so this is what being homesick is', i thought.

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i jogged all the way back to the house. when i came back, they were doing the usual. playing around and talking. i just stared a bit and walked to find mama or maybe even Sister Krone.

i wanted to talk to someone but i was a little scared that they wouldn't like me, so i just went to the adults.

i saw Sister Krone taking care of a baby. i approached her and waved. she smiled at me and waved back.

"hi y/n! what brings you here?", Sister Krone questioned.

"uhh, i just wanted to know how to hold a baby. maybe one day i have to hold one. . . but i don't know how to.", i replied, kind of embarrassed.

"sure! i can teach you.", she commented.

i nodded and she put down the baby she was holding. she motioned for me to go in the room with her, i followed her in the room and we both sat down.

she was now explaining to me how to carry a baby properly. when she finished, she motioned for me to try and carry one.

"but you just explained it to me so how-", i was trying to explain but got cut off.

"i'll support you, don't worry.", she said.

i just nodded and gently picked up a baby from their crib. as i carried the baby, i was worried that i might accidentally drop the baby.

Sister Krone gave me a reassuring smile. i calmed down and adjusted my hold on the baby.

i was now holding a baby in my hands. i smiled at Sister Krone and muttered a small ' thank you '.

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it was now dinner time and i went into the dining room to see the older children playing with eachother and talking to one another. i was still holding the baby earlier because Sister Krone told me to bring her/him to dinner.

the trio, Norman, Emma, and Ray, were looking at me weirdly as i played with the baby in my arms. i pretended i didn't notice as i kept playing with the giggling baby.

as mama came in, she saw me playing with a baby and she smiled fondly at the sight. when we all saw her come in, we all sat down at our own places.

i gave Sister Krone the baby and went to my own seat. we did all the things necessary before eating.

after we ate, we all did our night routine and the others went to bed early. i was sleeping in my own room, separated from the other children.

mama told me the way to my room and i nodded, remembering the ways she told me to go. after that, she left for her own night routine. i did the same, i brushed my teeth, changed my clothes, and i went to my room.

the room wasn't very big, but it was cozy. i locked the door and headed to the bed.

i adjusted in the bed to find a comfortable position. for some reason, i couldn't find one.

i remembered my crying session earlier and thought about home again.

' does mom notice i'm gone? did she even notice? will she miss me when i disappear? probably not. ', i thought.

before i could even think about more things, i noticed that i was already crying. more tears escaped my eyes and before i knew it, i was crying silently.

i didn't want to make a sound. i didn't want to wake anyone up. i just wanted to cry. my body was shaking from holding in my sobs.

after another crying session. i calmed down and finally felt drowsy, i didn't know what time it was. as i stared at the ceiling, i finally fell asleep.

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a/n: hey guys! sorry for the wait, i couldn't think of anything to do for this chapter. after all of the thinking i thought of this, i guess you could say this was based on a real thing that happened to me, hehe. i was feeling really moody and i thought about this, as promised, i made the chapter a little longer. see you in the next chapter, bye! Stay safe! (•̀ᴗ•́)و