Promise (discontinued)

𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘪𝘴 𝘪𝘵

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i was in my room, distancing myself from everyone. i knew what was gonna happen, i decided that it would be better if i didn't get too attached to them.

' i already am attached. . . what's the point in distancing myself now? ', i thought.

i was staring at the ceiling as if it was the most interesting thing in the world.

the trio haven't seen my eye yet, that's good. i forgot to eat breakfast today, but it seems like everyone forgot about me for a while. . .

the sound of knocking snapped me out of my thoughts. 

"who's there?", i said loud enough for them to hear.

"it's me.", the sound of mama's voice waa heard from outside of my door.

i sighed and got up to unlock the door.

i opened my door and saw mama, a worried look on her face. i looked at her blankly.

"do you need something?", i asked, clearly not in the mood.

"i'm worried, you said you weren't hungry, you need to eat at least a little.", mama said.

"it's just as i said, i'm not hungry. i'm fine, mama.", a small frown was now on my face, i was really moody today, "you don't need to worry much.", i continued.

she sighed and smiled at me,

"if that's what you say. . make sure to eat today."

i sent her a small smile back, appreciating the gesture.

when she left, i closed the door and locked in along the way. i frowned, if someone is worried about me, others will be worried too.

i walked to my bed and laid down. once again, i was staring at the ceiling, trapped in my thoughts.

i'm lying about everything at this point, i don't even know if i should tell the truth to the trio anymore.

i was trapped in my thoughts once again.

"y/n, wake up."

huh? am i hearing things now?

"you need to wake up, y/n. you'll die."

i guess i am hearing things now. i closed my eyes, ignoring the voice.

it was familiar, but i didn't want to find out who it was.

"y/n. wake up."

ah, it spoke again.

am i really asleep then?

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i sat up, thinking if i should pinch myself. i sighed.

when i attempted to pinch myself, everything around me turned black and i heard a distant crack and Emma's scream of pain.

' her leg is broken now. . . that means Norman will be "adopted" soon. ', i thought.

where was i? a void? i wasn't sure.

it was all black, like last time, but this time, it's real. i tried pinching myself earlier and it hurt.

i have no idea where i am. is this finally the end?

no goodbye's needed, huh?

at least i don't have to worry about telling them the truth anymore. the space i was sitting on rippled like water.

i was confused on where i was, but i wasn't fazed anymore.

"y/n. are you finally awake?"

the voice is back. i couldn't tell their gender, so let's just say whoever is talking is a 'they'.

"i guess i am. may i ask where i am?", i said

"you're in a void."

"so i was right. another question, was being in The Promised Neverland also a dream?", i asked.

". . no, it may be confusing because of the dreams you're having, but no. it's not a dream."

i sighed,
"thought so. can you explain what's going on right now?", i asked once again.

"yes.", they replied, "since you don't belong in The Promised Neverland, your body is being brought into reality and back into the anime world. therefore causing your body harm, it may be a slow process, but it's deadly. that's what happened to your eye, it may have not blinded you, but your body will become weak over time and you'll die. the void is a place where you choose. there is no wrong answer. we simply want to ask.

where do you want to go? reality or fantasy?"

wow, a lot of pressure right now, but okay.

i wasn't sure on what to answer. sure i wanted to go to the anime world, but this was too much. i was still thinking about my answer.

i couldn't choose at all. i sighed.

i finally remembered that i fell asleep earlier. so when i talked to mama, that was also a dream.

' man, this is so confusing. it almost makes me want to go to reality but i'm hesitant. ', i thought

i sighed once again, feeling a headache incoming.

as i thought about my answer, i chuckled bitterly and said,

"this is it, huh?"

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a/n: i sure love making things confusing. i'll see you guys in the next chapter!