It's been a week since me and vinnie had a lazy day. We've been hanging out alot. We've gotten along really well and we're being kinda flirty every now and then. Vinnies been really sweet lately. Hes trying to make it up to me like this I guess. Its working hes kinda making me fall inlove with him all over again.
Not to mention we share the same room now. Of course we have different beds. Hes been acting a little weird since yesterday. He was really dry and he was always on his phone texting someone. It felt like he kinda didn't want to talk to me. It was kinda getting to me a little. I was very suspicious and maybe I thought we might've had something going on. Hes not here right now he told me he had plans with the guys. I thought nothing of it since they hang out all the time.
I was kinda bored but I didn't get ready since I was lazy like that. I was just wearing my sweats and hoodies in my room watching TV. I finished like 4 episodes already so I decided to go on my phone again. I went on Instagram until I saw a post on tiktokroom. I immediately dropped my phone. My eyes were watery. My throat felt like it was clogged. I felt frozen and at a loss for words.
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tiktokroom - sent in alot👀☕
(once again I'm to lazy to write comments also im not good at writing them sorry💀)
I broke down and cried as I was sitting with my face in my knees. A blanket wrapped around me as you could hear the sounds of my sobs. Why? Why am I not good enough look at her she's gorgeous hair and a perfect face. I wanted to scream. Why would I ever think he would chose me. I'll always be a second option. There will always be someone else. But no one will ever love like I do. He doesn't deserve any of my love. I care so much about him. But he doesn't show me he feels the same way. I don't get the same energy I give him. Its a one sided relationship when your with him. I get that he's hurt sometimes but he's hurting me. And it isn't fun. I really do love him but its so hard to continue loving him when your not getting any of that love back.
I continued to sob until I heard the door open. Did I care? no. I continued to cry. I wanted to slap him and tell him how much I hate him but at the same time I wanna run into his arms and pretend everything's ok but its not. I heard him shut the door.
He was about to come in the room but I realized I had locked the doors before he left. I probably look like a mess right now but I stood up from my bed opening the door for him.
"Hey- woah woah woah what happened while I was gone why are you crying" he asked me with empathy on his face. I scoffed quietly and mumbled, "why would you care" under my breath. "Of course I care what are you talking about" he said. I didnt even think he had heard me but it is what it is. "Why I thought we had something special going on" as my voice broke. "Yea we do why would you think any differently remember what I said, I love you remember" he said confused. "I saw tiktokroom you know lying is really bad for your health" I scoffed harshly at him. "Did you really think I was that stupid. Obviously you did but guess what I found out your hooking up with some other chick and lying to me, REALLY you said you were out with the guys not fucking some country chick" I said my voice getting higher by each word. "I'm sorry really I'll make it up to you this time I promise I'll drop her and stop everything I have with her" he pleaded.
"No your not sorry. Your sorry you got caught because if I hadn't found out today this shit would still be going on. You keep saying your gonna make it up to me but we all know that's some bs. You just keep saying things that you know I want to hear but I'm not falling for this shit again" I paused "and don't break her heart like your doing to me" I said walking out of the room.
I grabbed my car keys and shoes to leave for awhile. I drove off playing my sad playlist. But suddenly dont watch me cry came on. I turned the volume up singing every word to the song. Putting all my emotion, anger, stress, and sadness into my singing and lyrics. I just wanted to scream and shout at the top of my lungs and get all my anger out. But apparently I can't do that because it'll cause to much commotion.
I continued to drive to the spot while singing the most saddest songs you could think of.
Author's note///
So I haven't edited in a while but ummm yea im kinda over the whole vinnie phase since he now seems like a regular white boy to me. But I am simping for number 7 ;). xoxo🦋
