My self-harm story

a little story before it ends

At last , there is a little story i need to tell you and it might help you anyways ,

before almost about a year i met this guy , he wanted to actually to be my best friend , and sadly enough i accepted this , so we went along joking around laughing and stayed late nights to talk to each other and so on . and between our conversations i fell in love with him but i knew he was a girl catcher , so i took the risk and did fell in love with him as we got closer to each other i kinda like gave a clue that i love him , he told me if i did so i was surprised and thought he loved me back so i said yes i do . he was like : woah stay where you are , remember we are friends only , and plus i dont want to fall in love bcz love can hurt you and whatever

at that time i ddnt knw what to do so i had to stay strong .

while i was sitting alone thinking by myself to test him and see really if he dsnt want to fall in love. so i made an account like im a another girl (a hot one) so he completly changed and and the same flattering words that he told me he said it to the girl (my plan B): i couldnt handle it so told him i love him (as the plan B) he was like oooh lets go out and show me that you truly love me . i was numb at that time and i froze like a statue bcz it was a great shock . and i said to him okay, so we planned where to meet and the time and all these stuff .

i went there , i was kinda nervous but i had to go ... so i went , was there . he was god damn surprised , i was like so so i thought you ddnt want to fall in love , he was litrally speechless , so my last word was oh shame and i walked away .

after i got home he was so "pissed " he was swearing at me and he let his very respectfull friend ( being sarcastic) and there words really hurt my feelings