My self-harm story

The blood in my arms

Since then I started cutting with more sharp stuff like scissors , knifes ..... Etc. but I never bleed before like the cut I made because of bullying .

I was called and still called fat by people and my last crush that I don't want to remember him no more , cause he swore at me and called me fat . I felt like I did the biggest mistake in my entire life . I've seen a lot of girls falling in love and having a crush but their crush never called them fat or any other bad stuff .

It was summer holidays and then I had a fight with my mom because of some family issues cause my parents are divorced since I was grade 5 , I bet you will feel like you never had these parents ,when your mom tells you about what your dad did , and Denys that's she is wrong and the same story with my dad they keep on interrogating me about what my mom did and what my dad did , it's bull shit .

I took the cutter and deeply cut my wrist , but I couldn't bare it cause it was bleeding so much and but there is no results for getting much better , by then I said the only cure is to commit suicide and never see this cruel world , I took the pack of a tablet , but I was unlucky enough that the housemaid came and I couldn't do it cause she will tell my mom , and my mom will start giving me lectures that I hate . I pretended everything was fine in front of her and took a one tablet and said plus lied that I have headache and went on with it .