Warning! Mentions of suicide and blood, this is also an unreliable narrative for the feeling of said thing... PTSD
-oO0Oo-
I'm taking breaths in,
But I'm not breathing.
It was a familiar transition,
Yet a foreign feeling.
Heart swelling, where's my destination?
Simply prancing, dilly dallying,
Something in my chest feels so full with its empty nation.
And, it hurts.
I don't know what to feel-
I have no clues leading me to an explanation.
It exhausts my mind,
And feeds on my devastation.
It isn't necessarily devastation, per se- this locked seal...
It's something half-lidded, yet it prevailed as a closed notion.
With the endless ties that bind,
I felt locked in my station...
What is it?
Trapped in a world of my own,
Was there no escaping this hell zone?
Scattered, a crimson jelly red on the walls came into view.
Scattered, the bang- I heard it again from across room.
What is with this cue!?
Breathe, stupid- breathe.
You're alright;
You are doing perfectly fine tonight.
It was just another nightmare with no lead...
If only I knew-
Why did you say goodbye?
What could I have done to make it alright?
Was is it my fault;
Do I have one I should deny?
If only I knew,
This was just bubbling paranoia.
A paradox, I'm still stuck in a lie.
This was just my paranoia,
That begun with your last goodbye.
...
I sought for help,
And it did help.
...
If only I knew,
What I would do-
If only I knew,
It's all over- it's time to start anew.
...
Goodbye,
I miss you-
Sleep tight.
I'll see you one day in the afterlife.
But right now,
I'm doing alright...
I hope you're watching over me
Somewhere in your new life.
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I hope I didn't offend anyone with what I've written down here! I'm not an accurate person to go to for things about PTSD and the such, but I try to do my research... However, research would never be enough to empathize fully with the intense feelings of PTSD. Though, I'd honestly highly encourage looking up on it!
It hurts to be at the mercy of your own disorder... At least, that's what I've heard.
Also, this was inspired by a Tedtalk by Joseph Keogh titled 'I witnessed a suicide'.
Please, don't take PTSD lightly, nor should you alienize anyone who has or is experiencing it. People only need eachothers support and care. Listen to their voices, and please, do what you can to help!
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PoesiaThis was originally going to be what I started as a project alone in my main account, but now it's just a compilation of letters I write on discord. Also, my dearest darlings, do you think I should use a few of these in my fanfic one-shot book? Also...
