ICONic Boyz Imagines

I won't ever love again// Any

A/N: Hi loves ❤️ I'm sorry I haven't updated in a while went through a super sad time with some now ex bestfriends etc etc AND IM BACK. Sadly this one is written from pure personal experience of what's happened recently so, Before I go a few of you asked for my social media so here ya go.
Fan Accounts:
Insta- FuscoDallas
Twitter- LiveForFusco
Tumblr- Dont-Give-A-Fusco
Personals:
Insta- KendraDanay
Twitter- KendrasDream
Ily guys more than summer ~Kendra
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Your POV
I've been heartbroken before. It's not deep or poetic. It's nothing like you read on tumblr or see on trendy Instagram posts. It's nothing like the fault in our stars or The hunger games. It's not like the notebook or the last song. You don't learn anything from it and it doesn't make you stronger. He doesn't come kiss you in the rain and no other guy fixes your brokenness. You're just broken until one day you decide that you're worth fixing and you fix yourself but the question of "what's wrong with me?" never really does go away. And their name never really does leave your tongue. There will be days where you'll smile and say you're over it and completely fine and then the next day you'll be crying on your mothers shoulder about the boy that ruined you and she'll tell you that you're beautiful and can do better but you won't believe it. Because she hasn't seen his eyes when he looked at you and she hasn't felt his arms pull you back together when you're falling apart and she didn't see how his eyes didn't have the love they once seemed to have after it was all over and how he looks at another like that now. She doesn't stay awake at two am remembering how his touch felt on your skin and typing text messages you'll never send to him. She doesn't erase all the music off her phone because all the songs remind her of him and she doesn't stop looking when you cross the street because any pain will be better then the pain he caused. No one understands.
He's not just a boy he was part of you.
He's part of everything you knew about yourself and now you're just an empty soul walking around trying to remember how you lived without him. And you feel pathetic because he totally ruined everything you once were and you still stay up at night remembering that one day you spent at the amusement park and that time you got kicked out of class because you couldn't stop laughing. And staying up at four am telling your Bestfriend how much you loved him and how much he meant to you. The same Bestfriend that he now calls baby and wears his jacket that you once kept for months and he looks at her with the same love eyes he used to look at you with. The same Bestfriend that's now trying to hurt you anyway she can because she's dying in her guilt.
And you don't know how to cope and you don't bother explain because you can't and all you can do is look at the deep, poetic, tumblr posts and think how did they find the words because there aren't enough words in the english language to explain your pain and you cry in the bathroom at lunch and spend every moment your at home in your bed and your english teacher asks if everything's alright at home because she's never seen you look so lifeless and your brother makes you promise to never run back to either of them and your friend tells you that you deserve better and everyone tells you that you deserve better but he ruined you so much that you sit at night and wonder do you?

Disclaimer: I'm not attention seeking.
Trust me I've had more attention then anyone can want from lots of nosy people it's just writing always helps when I'm down and I thought it would help. I'll be back tomorrow with my normal posts I promise.