(Anthari Fanfiction) Fade

Prologue

(A/N: I literally have no idea how to use Wattpad on my phone so the formatting will be awkward sometimes but sorry I keep restarting because I kept on improving my essay so bear with me. This will be the last restart I promise)

Mari's POV
Working in Smosh Games can be
hard. Very hard. Being the only girl, not the best at video games and always taking the punishment no matter how repulsive can get extremely aggravating.

Nevertheless, I love the guys. Ian is basically a brother to me and Sohinki, Lasercorn, and Joven are my best friends in the entire world. And Anthony; putting my feelings about Anthony into words is physically impossible. The way he talks is... and his hair is just so... and his eyes... his eyes are the most gorgeous eyes I've ever laid my eyes on. He is the most amazing person I have ever met. That may be how I feel on the inside, but I only act like a best friend on the outside. It can get really tough, loving someone who I know will only love me to a certain extent, and will never understand how I feel about him, because he does not love me in that way.

And it wouldn't matter if anyone else loved me because I would only be completely satisfied in life, if he did.

All of these feelings I have are useless anyways. He has a wonderful girlfriend already, named Kalel. She is honestly a great girlfriend; she's so sweet and appreciative to him. He's lucky to have her. But, I still feel like I have so much love to give, but I have no one to give it to. I recently broke up with who I thought was my soul mate, only to find out he cheated on me. I broke things off a couple of days ago and have been an emotional wreck ever since. I need someone to understand, but nobody does. People don't make a big deal out of cheating, as if he wasn't the right guy. But to think someone loved me, when they really never did is a horrible feeling.

As if no one could ever love me.