Hold on~ Jordan Wilson

Part 4~

I was really down the rest of the day. I hadn't seen Jordan anywhere. I decided to go to the music room at lunch. I remember Miss Carter saying I could use it if I wanted to as it "calmed me down" so why not use it to my advantage. I walked in and saw a few guitars hanging up. I grabbed one and started playing a song me and my dad started writing. I couldn't bring myself to finish it. It wasn't the same .

All I knew this morning when I woke. Is I knew something now, know something now I didn't
before. And all I've seen since 18 hours ago is green eyes freckles and your smile in the back of my mind making me feel like.

That's the first verse of the song me and my dad started writing. I sang it as I played my guitar. I saw someone at the door but they had gone before I could get a good look as to who it was. The bell went and it was time for my final lesson of the day. This day has honestly just dragged on.

At the end of the day, my mum text me

Walk home please, I'm working late~ Mum 💖

Ugh it's such a long walk home I can't be bothered. It's getting dark now as well. I put my headphones in and walk out of school. I say goodbye to Missy Nas and her sister Hayley and carry on walking. A car pulls up next to me on my way home. I start shaking I'm so scared. He pulls his window down. "Wanna get in darlin." I started running but I heard the man reving his engine, scaring me even more. All of a sudden I come to a complete stop. I'm met with a familiar looking hoodie. I look up. Oh god. This isn't good. Is he going to shout at me. Should I apologise for what I said. Luckily the car drove away. "Hello". He didn't say anything instead he just walked away. Wow cheers Jordan. Such a hero.

I finally reached home. I still couldn't stop thinking about that boy. He's honestly driving me insane. I heard my front door open. "Mum you're home". I was so excited to see my mum. I wanted to tell her all about Jordan, but I didn't want to upset her. I didn't want her to think I was being taken away from her. She's already had too much taken away from her.

Also tomorrow is my dads birthday. It's one of the days I've been dreading to come. It's been a year now since he passed. My mum isn't getting any better. It's why I'm trying to keep myself out of trouble. My mood will be no better at school tomorrow. Maybe I shouldn't go in. I know I'll take all my anger out on Jordan again. Why do I do that though?