Beyond the Awakening // Kylo Ren x Reader

Chapter 22

Your anger and hate immediately fades away as you start running towards him, throwing yourself on the ground next to him when you were near enough. You let out a shuddering breath as you get a closer look at the severity of his wounds scattered throughout his body.

"Kylo." You whimpered, tears falling down your cheeks. "I'm sorry..."

"No." He groans. "I- it was my fault."

Your eyes flicker from his wounded face to the snow next to him that was turning red. He was bleeding out from the large gash he had gotten on his side from Chewie's crossbow. Kylo attempts one more time to sit up but he hisses in pain and falls back again as more blood colors the snow.

"No!" You panted, putting pressure against his wound with your hand. "If you keep forcing yourself like this, you'll only lose more blood."

The gash wasn't cauterized like the other wounds that had been caused from the lightsaber, making this particular one dangerous for him.

More immense shaking begins, making you turn your head to the side and see another explosion coming from the base in the distance but what worried you most was the ground behind you that keeps slowly crumbling from where it had split between you and Rey, the edge getting closer to where you were.

"You'll die if you stay here." Kylo pants, making you look back down at him. "You have to go find a ship and leave."

"No.." You shake your head. "I'm not leaving you Kylo."

You take another deep rugged breath as more tears fall down your cheeks and Kylo weakly lifts up his arm to hold your cheek. You quietly gasp, feeling the cold leather of his glove being pressed up against your skin as he strokes a thumb under your eye to wipe away the tears. You instantly become numb from his touch- whether it be from the coldness or just him, you don't know.

He clenches his jaw, his pain filled eyes turning glossy. "My love.. please."

You know what to do

You know how to save him

"You will be fine." You reassured Kylo, keeping your hand pressed over his gash as you listen to Obi-Wan's guidance.

Relax yourself

And breathe

You part your lips, letting out a small breath and taking in a new one to let fresh air fill your lungs.

Now feel the force

The very force that sprung and flourished in your soul before you were even born

Will it for something else other than power

As you continue to keep your eyes locked on the main wound that was draining the life out of him, Kylo lays his head back down on the floor along with his hand, feeling too worn out to fight back anymore.

He slightly shivers as he could feel the coldness of the snow through his uniform, it soon feeling wet as it melted against his body heat. He gazes at the snowflakes that were falling from the sky but he feels his vision getting blurry and it was making his head hurt so he closes his eyes instead.

"Do you love me?" Kylo barely whispered.

You turn your eyes away from the wound you were concentrating on to look at him and see that he still had his eyes shut as a tear rolled down the side of his face.

"Do you still love me even after what I did?" He asked again, his voice shaking.

You furrow your brows, feeling a lump in your throat as you could feel his pain being emitted to you.

"Kylo, that is something you never have to question." You softly said. "I love you..always."

"Always." He breathed, his lips slightly twitching into a smile before scrunching his face in pain again from his wound.

You gently shush him and continue to put all your efforts and strength into healing him so you could both get out of here together.

Kylo doesn't feel the bitter cold of the wind hitting his face anymore, he didn't feel the stinging pain of his gash anymore as he continued to keep his eyes shut. He didn't know wether he was dying or your healing was working but at that moment he just felt like sleeping so he did.

Kylo's upper body was resting on your lap as you cradle his head in your arm, trying to keep him as away from the snow as you possibly could. You also put him to sleep so he wouldn't continue to feel the pain as you finished healing him while the shaking of the ground comes and goes.

Just then a humming of a ship followed by bright lights makes you look up to see Kylo's shuttle hovering overhead before landing a few feet away from you, it's wings extending upwards. The ramp descends on the floor as Hux runs down from it, making his way towards you and you feel like you can finally breathe normally again.

"(Y/n)." He sighs, bending down next to you. "Thank the stars you're alright."

You look back in front of you to see Kylo's knights also running towards you. Four of them bend down in front of you, tucking their hands beneath his body and carefully lifting him up in the air above their heads as they carry him into the shuttle.

The last two knights bend down on the other side of you and one of them speaks up.

"General (l/n), we have to go now."

"Come on." Hux said, grabbing your shoulders.

Your whole body was sore, your muscles aching beneath your skin as you were finally feeling the aftermath of the battle you had but you still manage to find the strength you had left to slowly lift your body up. Hux continues to support you on one side while a knight holds your hand as you all walk towards the shuttle.

The other knight spots the two black hilts you had left behind. They were almost unnoticeable since the snow that was falling had almost completely hidden them away. He quickly bends down and in a swift motion picks them up before running to catch up to you and the others that were already walking up the ramp.

The floor shuts back up behind the last knight and almost immediately you feel the shuttle take off from the ground. You walk towards one of the private rooms to see Kylo laying shirtless in bed as a medical droid stitches up the other wounds you didn't get time to heal.

Your shift gazes to the viewport on the wall across the room to see Starkiller Base, the whole planet blowing up in a fiery black explosion. Your lip quivers in anger and sadness as you rapidly blink at  the scene fading away in the darkness of space.

Hux comes up behind you, placing a thick warm blanket over your shoulders. You glance over at him to see that he also had a solemn look on his face from the loss of the base.

"I assure you.. we will destroy them for this." You promised.

He nods his head. "I know that we can."

"Especially that wretched scavenger." You said with a scrunched face. "She's mine."

"Not one of them will have mercy taken upon them." Hux added.

"Well where are we going now?" You asked

"Supreme Leader has instructed me to bring you and Kylo back to The Supremacy." He said.

You sigh. "Home, sweet home."