It's been fucking 5 months. I haven't ate more slept. I look dead. Taylor would come in and feed me but I refuse. When you love someone so much and they leave your whole life just crumbles under you. You don't know how to eat, sleep, act, nor function without them. Emilio always sleeps with me but I pretend to sleep for him. Alejandro. Yes I don't call him Alex or ale anymore. Alejandro is a shitbag that doenst give 2 shots about what I feel for mattia. He has Katie over almost everyday but I can't even text him. Alejandro blocked and removed mattia from my phone. I basically go back to online school since mattia and I go to the same school. I was just sitting on the floor crying. I hear a knock.
??: hi it's Sarah
I get up and unlock the door. Over the 5 months my mom died in a car accident. My "dad" and his family moved in with us since he still has custody of us. Sarah is trying her best since I'm the only girl. Sarah had a miscarriage a month after we met her. She looks at me and opened her arms. I just go into them since I really needed that hug.
Sarah: tell me what's wrong I will do everything in my power to help you
Alyssa: t-there's n-nothing y-you c-can d-do
Sarah: ahh come on the boys are just protective of you
Alyssa: no Alejandro is not my brother he did this to me he took the love of my life away from me
Sarah: shhhh
She puts my head into her chest. I just hug her. I cried my eyes out. After a solid 10 minutes I calmed down. I pull away and wipe my tears off.
Alyssa: sorry it's just
Sarah: no hunny it's ok
I give her a soft smile. More like half a smile but still something to give her. She gets up and kisses my head. She walks out and closes the door. I decided to post on my spam account.
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I heard the door bell ring. I just thought it was Taylor. I hear yelling downstairs. I decided to go downstairs. I see all the boys holding back Alejandro from someone. I walk closer to see mattia in the door way. I just stood there. Everyone's eyes were on me.
Alejandro: go back upstairs alyssa
Alyssa: no your not gonna keep me away from him
Mattia looks at me. I go and hug him. He didn't hug me back. I look up at him.
Mattia: umm Alyssa let's talk upstairs
He takes me hand and drags me upstairs. He sits on the bed. I sit next to him.
Mattia: I have to leave
Alyssa: what
Mattia: I have to leave you
I just stood there. I started to cry.
Alyssa: why
Mattia: your twin brother won't let me see you Alyssa and it's eating me alive telling you
Alyssa: are you breaking up with me
Mattia: I don't want to but I have to
I start sobbing into his chest. He rubs my back. I felt tears on my shoulder. I pull away he was crying too.
Alyssa: no mattia don't cry please
Mattia: I don't want to but I have to
He grabs my cheeks. He leaves a soft kiss on them.
Alyssa: don't leave me
Mattia: Alyssa your the love of my life I will never leave you
He comes and gives my head a kiss. He rocked me back and forth. He placed me on the bed. He stands up.
Mattia: I love you Alyssa
Alyssa: don't leave
Mattia starts to cry. He leaves. I go and scream into my pillow. I just started sobbing. How could Alejandro ruin my life. I end up falling asleep to crying so much.
A/n: sorry I just had a lot of makeup work to the point I didn't have my phone😭 I'm soo sorry -Williams❤️
