I have nothing.
The happiness comes and goes but you've truly taken away the one thing that has always stayed.
I was okay.
But I'm too afraid now.
I can't sleep, but I don't want to wake up.
I hate that I was taken advantage of.
I didn't know better though.
No one knows the meaning behind my words because no one will ever care to ask. When you start to get it , I'll forever , be gone.
I'm a ticking time bomb and there's no way to stop me. I'm ruined.
Maybe I'll wake up. But you should worry about when it occurs.
I'll leave when you least expect it, because I told you I was toxic. I want people to miss me just as much as I've always missed myself.
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I thought I was safe here until everything became so clear. You could take away anything from me without my control. I couldn't have my own opinions without your judgement and now I don't plan on sharing anything about myself.
I'm scared to eat.
And I'm scared to speak.
I wake up afraid, I hope you know that.
Because now I'll never be the same.
