Lose (Jenlisa) - Sequel

I will never know if you love me or my company

Lisa's POV

It has been five years since BLACKPINK's disbandment. Five years since I last saw her.
Five years since I get to playfully kiss her cheeks and hold her hands.

Five years since I told her I love her, and five years since she said 'I love you too, Lisa.'

BLACKPINK has been a group for seven years, and in those seven years, Lisa has been in love with Jennie.

But she kept quiet. She didn't really want to ruin what her unnies have.

Jisoo and Jennie were perfect for each other. They can literally stare into each others eyes and be able to communicate. Jensoo's chemistry is just unbeatable.

And Jennie has always treated Lisa as a friend. That was the bottomline.

That was what made Lisa decide to just be a spectator of Jennie and Jisoo's love story.

But there are times where she felt that Jennie likes her too.

Jennie sometimes kiss her cheeks too.

She'd hold Lisa's hand all of a sudden, and Lisa will just let the sparks travel through her being, and squeeze Jennie's hand back.

Sometimes, Jennie would ask Lisa for cuddles, if Jisoo is in another country or is busy with her individual photoshoots.

And Jennie has always told Lisa that she's beautiful. That her eyes, when hit with sunlight, is the most beautiful shade of brown Jennie has ever seen.

These little things are what made Lisa fall for Jennie more, and she doesn't understand.

Because Jennie is always making grand gestures that shows how much she loves Jisoo.

That is why for so many years, Lisa is always confused, in pain, and just lost.

So Lisa decided that it's best to just avoid the impending heartbreak and try to move on from Jennie.

It has been five years since she last talked to the married couple, as well as her best friend, Rosie. She doesn't have any idea what was happening in their lives, and she thought that it was for the best as well.

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'I will never know if you love me
Or my company, but I don't mind
'Cause I ain't tryna be the one
Been through this a thousand times
I don't need to take your heart
You keep yours, I'll keep mine'

The lyrics softly coming from the café's speakers pulled Lisa out of her reverie. She thought that the lyrics of the song were appropriate to describe how she and Jennie had been in the past.

They have an undeniable connection, yet, between the two of them, none was really willing to entertain that idea, lest talk about it.

Lisa is now in Amsterdam for her collaboration with Calvin Klein. After their group's disbandment, Lisa pursued a career in dancing and photography.

As a photographer, she mostly collaborated with big brands, but it's either their location will be in the US, Asia, or the other side of Europe. This has been the first time since their last world tour that she visited Amsterdam again. But now, she's no longer an Idol, but a sought-after photographer.

The photoshoot will commence tomorrow.

And she can't wait for tomorrow to come.

Because as wrong as it is, and even though she tried so hard to forget Jennie in the past five years, she just can't.

She can't wait to see her again.

To look at her again.

Jennie.

Jisoo's Jennie.

Calvin Klein's newest brand ambassador.

And fuck the universe for not giving her the courage to tell Jennie how she felt years ago. Tomorrow, she will be a different Lalisa.

Tomorrow, she'll start working on making Jennie fall for her.

She just hopes that Jisoo and the heavens will forgive her.

Love makes you crazy. Love makes you blind. And that is Lisa's truth as of the moment.

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to be continued