Bts one shots smut

The Truth (Jin)

I tremble, fingers shaking as I hold the test with the tips of my fingers... my vision is blurred but I can see the result perfectly.
A sob escape past my lips, a little plus sign
Stares back at me, the quiet bathroom filled with loud sobs.
'What do I do? How am I supposed to tell him?' Too many thoughts at once I clutch my heart and slip down the wall

'I'm gonna have to talk to him, what if he doesn't want it? What if he doesn't want me..-'
I can't think about this right now.
Throwing the test into the trash I stand up quickly, the spinning in my head gets worse, rushing over to the toilet I fling the seat up.
Pulling back my hair I wretch this mornings breakfast into it, I cry, I keep crying.
Not because I'm hurting but because I don't know what the future holds for us, for this baby.
How do I tell him? What will he say? We've been together for 2 years now but for some reason I have this bad feeling in my gut, and trust me it's not the baby or the morning sickness making me feel this way.
I wipe my mouth and stand up, gripping onto the counter tightly as I steady myself.
I flush the toilet and rinse my mouth out, turning around I shut off the light as I head over to the bed.
Sitting onto it I grab my phone, unlocking it as I go to my messages.
My fingers tremble as they hover over the send button, sighing as a tear slips down my cheek.
"Try to come home early? I want to talk to you." Shaking my head I tap the button and turn off my phone. Throwing it to the other side of the bed, I slip under the covers and cry to myself. The pounding in my head gets worse and I feel myself starting to fall asleep, letting my eyes shut I drift off to sleep, maybe when I wake up my head will stop hurting.

Slowly I open my eyes, a soft feeling replaced my anxious one when I feel someone rubbing my back gently, I open my eyes wider.
Jin is kneeling on the floor, face infront of mine, rubbing my back as I slept.
I blink slowly, as I watch his eyes glued on my back, eyebrows furrowed deep in thought, slowly his eyes meet mine.
Realizing I'm awake he stands up, I pull my legs to my chest as I sit up in bed, him sitting by my legs.
'Hey...You doing okay?' His voice comes out quiet and soft, croaking slightly at the end, "I just needed to talk to you about something, about our future.." I trail off slowly as I watch his face.
His face scrunches up, I can see his forehead wrinkle with annoyance.
Glancing over I look at my phone, the time flashes and I realize that's it's now 6 o'clock, His words cut off my thoughts.
"Y/n.. please I can't do this tonight, I've been too busy with the concerts and the tours, on top of that were in the middle of writing some new stuff" I can feel my eyes start to sting.
A small smirk makes it's way to my face, I scoff, "when are you gonna realize, you say this every time, 'I'm busy this, I'm busy that' I GET IT OKAY! BUT WHAT ABOUT ME! WHAT ABOUT ME JIN!" I croak out. I can feel the burning sensation rise in my throat, the tears finally escape as he looks away from me.
"What the fuck do you want me to do y/n? Huh I'm busy too! I CANT JUST SIT AROUND AND TAKE CARE OF YOU!" I can see the red rising up his neck.
'So that's what he thinks, I'm so useless to him that he thinks I need him all the time, when I just want him to talk to me', "I JUST WANT TO KNOW WHATS GONNA HAPPEN TO US JIN! WEVE BEEN TOGETHER FOR 2 years now..." I say whispering at the end as my sobs get in the way.
"YEAH WELL I HAVE NO IDEA! WHAT IF I DONT WANT TO BE WITH YOU ALL THE TIME!" He yells, my eyes widen as this slips out.
His eyes widen in realization, '2 years and for what? For him to still think maybe he doesn't want me' wow alright.
My hands comes up..it's burns as I smack him right across the face, my body shaking as I see his head turn to the side.
He stays there not turning back, jaw clenched as he brings his hand up to touch his jaw, face red from the slap.
Turning on my heal I grab my phone, unlocking it I call my sister, turning around I bring it up to my ear.
It takes 3 rings before she answers, yanking the closet open I pull my suitcase down, "hey what's up?..-"hey sis can I come stay with you for a bit?" I rush out, cutting her off.
I can feel him behind me, his warmth radiating onto my back as I rip clothes out, shoving them into the suitcase on the floor.
"Y/n... Y/N STOP WHAT ARE YOU DOING!?" His voice fades out as I don't answer him, shoving him out of my way as I head to grab my tooth brush from the bathroom.
"Yeah of course, you know you can always stay as long as you need... but what's going on?" "I'll tell you when I get there, I don't have it in me right now" she takes in a breath as she hears me sob into the phone.
I hang up the phone but not before I say goodbye, telling her that I will be there shortly, my wrist gets gripped as i step into the bedroom.
"Y/n please stop what are you..-" "IM LEAVING WHAT ELSE DOES IT FUCKING LOOK LIKE JIN!?" I scream out, tears streaming down my face, I look up and can see his eyes glistening too.
"IM FUCKING TIRED! Okay! 2 FUCKING YEARS AND YOU STILL CANT LOOK ME IN THE FACE AND TELL ME THAT YOU WANT ME... that you possibly want to marry me!, I'm done if you don't.. then I'm no longer staying here" I can see my words effect him.
He looks up at me now tears running down his face as he gives me a soft look.