Chapter Seven : War Of Hormone

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»You sure you wanna play this game?«, Jungkook asked unsure. Jimin woke up right in that moment, drool in the corner of his mouth. »Which game? I love games!«, he shouted enthusiastically. Hobi signified the younger to wipe away his saliva first.

»So, which game are we playing?«, he asked again because no one answered. Taehyung took up the word by saying: »So Jin..he wants to play either Truth or Dare or Never Have I Ever.« »But don't you think we already know everything about the other? I mean we know each other for at least 8 years«, Namjoon uttered. He was clearly uncomfortable, fidgeting his hands. »Oh Joonie, do you have a dark secret which nobody should know about?«, Jin provoked, a mischievous smile on the lips. »N-No!«, the leader shouted. »Then there's nothing to be afraid of«, Jin stated, »besides we will have forgotten everything tomorrow anyway.«

Jimin clapped his hands, the only one totally thrilled. But he was also the only one, who didn't hear what Jin said just five minutes ago. »Okay, but let's play Truth or Dare, but without Dare. I still remember the last dare Jin gave Hobi«, Jungkook murmured. Everybody, except Jin of course, shook at the memory. With the thought that they were all too wasted to remember anything, Jin started the game.

The first ten minutes were pretty relaxed. The questions were basics like „Taehyung, would you rather sing naked in front of our fans or never ever sing again?" Of course he chose the naked option. Everybody agreed, thinking that ARMY wouldn't even have a problem with it.

In any case the mood changed after ten minutes. In the middle of nowhere it was their leader who steered the game in a different direction.

»Jimin«, he began, looking the younger in the eyes, »are you in love?« This question left everyone shocked. Of course they talked about almost everything, but they never talked about their love life. At least not all of them.

Everybodys eyes were on Jimin, curious about the answer. »You don't have to answer this question, Chim«, his soulmate butted in, recognizing that he was clearly uncomfortable with it. But Jimin wasn't the only one that felt uneasy. Yoongis body was frozen, afraid of the answer. He knew he had no say in this, but he wasn't sure if he wanted to know who..

»I don't know«, Jimin answered honestly, »there's..there is someone, but I'm not sure what I'm really feeling towards him. Friendship? Love? I don't know.« He took another sip from his drink before he continued. »And I'm not even sure how he feels about me. Sometime there are moments when I think he feels the same. But you know what's funny? Even if he returns my feelings we can't be together«, Jimin finished. »You could tell him, you know? We would support you. It did work with Jungkook and Haneul. Well, before they broke up. If he really likes you he will understand and sign the contract«, Hobi assured while patting his thigh.

Without saying something Yoongi stood up and left the room. »What's wrong?«, Jimin asked while he looked at the door. »Maybe he's just tired«, Hobi mumbled. But Jimin had the urge to go after the older. So he excused himself and went after him.

J I M I N  A N D  Y O O N G I S  P O V

He found him in his room. »Hyung?«, the younger asked carefully. He was afraid that the older would shut himself off. »I'm tired and drunk, Jimin. Go back and leave me alone«, he said, not even looking at the other. Normally he would sigh, wish him a good night and leave the room. But right now he didn't feel like it.

So instead he sat down right next to him. »Please Jimin, I really don't want to talk to you right now.« »Why? It's okay to talk to Hoseok or Namjoon but you never really talk to me when something is wrong with you«, Jimin pouted, but also felt slightly angry.

»Because Hobi is my best friend and Namjoon is our leader. Furthermore your my dongsaeng so I don't know why I should be explaining myself«, Yoongi declared coldly. The younger could feel a stab in his heart. He gulped, trying to stay cool even though he was insecure. Jimin knew that Yoongi was never one, who showed his emotions often. That doesn't mean it didn't hurt Jimin.

»But I want to know what you feel. What goes on in your genius brain«, the younger sighed, looking Yoongi directly in the eyes, »I see that you aren't tired but still you're in your bed instead of the living room. So what's wrong?«

Jimin raised his hand with the intention to caress the olders check. But Yoongi stopped him by grabbing his wrist. »Don't«, he whispered weak. Jimin wasn't the only one who drank too much alcohol. And even though Yoongi was definitely the more responsible of both, he didn't know if he could hold back this time.

»Why? What's wrong with me wanting to touch you? You have no problem with Tae or Jungkook touching you«, the younger asked quietly. Yoongi sighed again, caressing Jimins wrist with his thumb. »You know that it's different«, he mumbled, avoiding the others gaze. He didn't know where the courage came from but before he could think about it, the words already left Jimins mouth.

»Because we like each other?«

Yoongis heart stopped for a second. It wasn't because Jimin knew about his feelings. It was because he said it out loud. All this time he held himself back. All these years. He didn't knew how he should feel about it.

Happy? Because Jimin obviously felt the same. Sad? Because he knew that they could never be a couple. Not in this industry.

»I like you, Jimin«, he answered. Yoongi could see a shy smile forming on the other lips. It broke his heart because he knew he would break the others now. That was the last thing he ever wanted to do, but there was no other way.

»But just like a brother. I don't want you to interpret something wrong.«

The smile immediately dropped on the youngers face. »I know you're lying, Min Yoongi. I see you looking at me secretly, I know your the one behind the members actions towards me. I know you have feelings for me«, Jimin started, getting more frustrated with every word, »so please don't do this to me. I like you too. We can work this out. Nobody has to know about us. I will-«

»Stop!«, Yoongi interrupted him harshly. Jimin immediately stood up from the bed, too surprised to hear the other raising his voice. The older wanted to apologize, beg him to stay, to hold him, but he didn't.

»I will forget what you've said tonight«, Yoongi ended the conversation and signified the younger to leave his room.

And this time Jimin, with tears in his eyes, left the room.

And Yoongi knew he wouldn't forget what the other said.

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