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Chapter Three : Let Me Know

»Jungkookie!«, a female voice said. His girlfriend. Shit! Said boy took Taehyung immediately off his lap, fixing his hair as much as it was possible right now. He gave Tae a look which said: „I'm really confused and don't know what happened but please don't tell her anything."

Jungkook straightened his shirt before he opened the door. »Hey, Haneul. I didn't expect you!«, he said with pretended suprise. »Yes, I know. But I called Jin and he was telling me that you're at home. So I thought maybe I suprise you and we-«, she stopped as soon as she spotted the blonde one on the bed.

»Hey Haneul«, Tae said, trying to calm down his breath and beating heart. Even someone who didn't knew the woman could tell she wasn't amused. »Am I interrupting something?«, she asked concerned. Jungkook could feel his heart beating to his neck. The whole situation was confusing and fucked up. When he looked into his girlfriends eyes he could see her uncertainty. That was the moment realization hit him: he did kiss Tae. He kissed his best friend. He cheated on his girlfriend.
He was disgusted with himself. So much that he had the urge to vomit.

In the moment he wanted to run to the toilet, a deep voice behind him said: »Jungkookie and I have a movie night, but it's okay. I think.. I will just leave. You can have him.« The younger wasn't brave enough to turn to his friend, even though every body cell screamed No Tae, please stay!

Taehyung stood up, a fake smile on his lips as he passed the couple. He whispered a goodbye as he closed the door behind him.

»Are you guys okay? Did you fight? Oh, you didn't tell him about our little argument yesterday, right?«, Haneul asked horrified. Jungkook just sighed, totally confused about what happened only a minute ago. »No, I didn't tell him. W-We.. it's just been a long time I spent some time with him alone. So we decided to have a movie night.« He shrugged, scratched his neck and tried to put on a smile.

»Ah, I understand. Well, I'm sorry for interrupting but«, she wrapped her arms around Jungkooks waist, »now I'm here to spend some quality time with you.« Haneul stood on her tiptoes as she came closer to her boyfriends lips. In the last moment he turned his head so that her lips landed on his cheek. »I'm not in the mood. To be honest I feel kinda sleepy«, he uttered in a quiet voice. When he finally looked into his girlfriends eyes he saw many emotions - confusion, anger and rejection. His heart stopped beating. He was such an asshole. Haneul was beautiful, caring and supportive. She always trusted him and as a thanks he cheated on her.

Haneul tried not to be hurt but failed miserably. She just nodded, turned around and opened the door. Both heard the thud but didn't care. »Well, then I think I will be going. You call me when you have some free time?«, she asked anxious. »Of course.«
Now was the time to say what he did but instead of opening his mouth, he just watched his girlfriend closing the door behind her.

After letting himself fall on his bed, he took his head in his heads. »You're such an asshole, Jeon Jungkook«, he whispered to himself. As he heard a knock on the door he thought Haneul came back but it wasn't her. In the door stood his best friend, who he kissed only some minutes ago.

»We have to talk«, Taehyung said as he closed the door. Too afraid that any of the guys could walk by and hear their conversation. »Not now, Tae. Please, not now«, the younger said still struggling with the situation. He needed to think about everything. About what he should do. About what he was feeling.

»No, we're talking about this. Now«, Taehyung said in a firm voice even though you could hear a little tremble, »I know you felt something. When we kissed there was-« »There was nothing, Taehyung. We're both exhausted, not thinking straight. I have a girlfriend and you have Aera. So stop interpreting something when there's nothing to interpret«, Jungkook interrupted while looking emotionless into the olders eyes.

Taehyung clenched his hands in fists as he took one step forward and said: »I'm not letting you doing this, Kook. I know your afraid. Shit, I don't even know what happens right now but the moment I felt your lips on mine my heart was beating like crazy.«

Another step.

»Don't come closer«, the brown haired boy warned. But Taehyung didn't even blink.

Another step.

»I'm serious, Taehyung«, Jungkook warned again but his voice wasn't so strong anymore.
»Why? Because your heart starts beating faster than it should? Because that's the case for me.«

Another step.

He wasn't far away anymore. If he took another step his knees would touch Jungkooks.
»Tae..«, the younger whispered. In his voice was a hint of confusion and rejection but the biggest part was desire. The desire to feel his lips again. And he hated himself for having these thoughts. Taehyung could read Jungkook like a book, so he saw the emotions in his eyes and took the last step.

He took the others hands to bring him on his feet. As their faces were only a few inches away they couldn't stop looking into each other's eyes. The older put Jungkooks hands on his waist while he put his own behind the youngers neck.

»Let me know if you don't want this«, the blonde one said. Jungkooks whole body stiffened but Taehyung didn't lose his courage when the younger didn't say anything. He knew the next words would change their whole friendship, relationship and maybe their would be consequences for the group but all he could think of was his irregular heartbeat.

»Kiss me, Kookie«, he whispered breathily.

And he did.