𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐆 𝐀𝐅𝐅𝐀𝐈𝐑 | 𝟏𝟖+

T W E L V E

A W A K E

When Kian woke up, he had no idea where he was. He tried sitting up but it was all too much for his head.

"Relax," Blake said. She pushed him back down.

"Where am I?"

"The hospital," Blake answered. She sat on the seat next to the hospital bed. "It's a really fancy one too."

"Oh."

"Jackie told me everything."

Kians face became red. "She did?"

"Yeah. You could have told me you were boning your boss," Blake laughed.

Kian couldn't help but laugh a little too. "So you aren't bad?"

"No," Blake smiled. "It makes sense," she laughed a little. "All the late nights, the restaurant, the late nights," she quietly repeated. "As long you're happy. You deserve that."

Kian smiled. "Is she here?"

"Oh umm," Blake slanted her lip. "She gave me your check a long with a letter. I'm not sure if it's good or bad but from the look on her face..."

"Lemme see," he sighed.

He opened the letter and read it.

I could have called or texted you but I was feeling funny today. Lol.

I just wanted to thank you for everything. Your help with Jaqueline, your help with me. This past month has been amazing. But, I have to put my family first and my relationship with my son is shit.

I'm sorry again. I guess this is me letting you go... I didn't want it to be like this. But I'm sorry. I'll still be in contact with Blake though because I still indeed want to give her that restaurant.

I hope you understand. I hope that in the future we can possibly be friends again.

If you want, you can call for the last time to say goodbye to Jaqu. I'm sure this will seriously hurt her but she's seven. She'll be fine.

Bye :)

A tear fell down Kians face. He questioned his feelings towards everything. Was his tears necessary? Was this hurt he felt necessary? Did he really need to feel this broken and beat up?

Well yeah. Of course he needed to feel beat up. He did get beat up.

He was going to miss Jackie and miss Jaqueline. But most of all, he was going to miss helping his sister. She sacrificed a lot for him and he could no longer help.

It's my fault, he thought. All of it.

He felt responsible for so much at this moment. Stuff that wasn't even his doing.

He felt responsible for Jackie's shitty relationship with Jackson. He felt responsible for Jackie having no help. He felt responsible for Blake and her struggles. He felt responsible for his parents death.

He started to break down.

"Hey, hey, hey." Blake rushed over to him and engulfed him in a big hug. "It's okay." She knew this could've been from some silly letter. But then again, they were fucking and people fall in love. "What happen?"

"My birth happen. Mom and dad should've just aborted me. If they had, they would've died that night."

"Hey don't say that!" Blake began to cry a little herself. "Don't blame yourself for that. Please don't."

"If they didn't need to drive to pick me up, they would've never gotten hit," he cried.

"Stop!" She cried. "Please, stop," she begged.

"If I hadn't took the job, Jackie wouldn't have to worry about her relationship with her son," he cried. "I ruined it even more than what it was."

"No, stop blaming yourself! Those things happen," Blake hugged him tighter.

They sat there and cried in each others arms for a bit.

Blake didn't want her little brother feeling like this. She had felt like this once and it was a terrible point in her life.

But, she also knew this was coming. He hadn't broken down like this. Maybe a few tears but never like this.

All Kian wanted to was a take a gun, load it, and shoot himself in the head.

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