~I love you~

Part 5

Alex's POV

Luke just poofed out and I don't know what to do anymore. Something is obviously wrong, but I don't know how to help him. Reggie looks at me questioningly, but I just poof out to my parents' house. Or at least where they used to live. Now it's just a skate park. I don't know where they went, but it's not like they would even really care I died. The last time I saw them, they kicked me out. I still wish I could see what happened to them though. I was always so close to my parents, especially my mum, but then I came out and now they hate me.

"Get out! You've disappointed your mother and me! No son of ours will be gay! It's not right and you don't deserve our love!" my dad screams.

"Fine!" I scream.

I run upstairs and grab all of the important stuff I need. I run out the door and the last thing I see is my dad holding my crying mum. I run all the way to the studio, not letting the tears spill until I get inside and see Luke sitting on the couch. He sees me and smiles, before he realizes that I'm crying. He gets up quickly and holds out his arms. I walk straight into them and he wraps them around me.

"Alex, what happened," he asks, quietly.

"I-I thought they were ready to find out," I manage to get out.

He realizes what happened and he holds me even tighter.

"Don't worry about them, if they can't see how special you are, they don't deserve you. No one deserves you," he sighs.

"You do," I say.

He brings me to his mattress and we lie down. I lay my head down on his chest and wraps his arms around me as we fall asleep together.

It's times like this where I wish Luke were with me, holding me, but that can't happen anymore. I know Luke said he's happy for me, because of Willie and everything, but what if I'm not happy? What if I want Luke instead of Willie? I shake my head. I can't think I like that. Luke has Julie now. But I can't stop thinking about him and it's killing me. I need to know what's going on with him. He usually comes to me, but maybe I need to go to him this time.

"Luke, I need to talk to you," I say.

"Yeah sure, what's up," he replies.

"I think we should break up. If we end things mutually now, we can still be friends and it won't break the band up. I just don't want anything to come between us and our dreams," I say. I don't want to break up, but it's for the best. The most important thing to Luke is his music and he needs to focus on that.

"I think you're right. Maybe it'll be different in the future, but for now I guess this is it. Friends?" he says, tears in his eyes.

I nod and he pulls me into a hug. We stay like that for a minute and then he lets go and that's it.

***

It's been two weeks since they break up and things are looking up. We're playing the Orpheum tonight and we decided to go for street dogs before. I take a big bite, but it tastes weird.

"That's a new flavor," I say, my mouth full.

"Chill, man, street dogs haven't killed us yet," Reggie says.

We shrug and take another bite. I start to feel queasy and Reggie falls to the ground clutching his stomach. I shout to the nearest person to call an ambulance. A few minutes later we hear sirens and the doctors get us on stretchers and into the ambulance. I look at Reggie and see them put an oxygen mask on him.

"Reggie, you're going to be okay. Hold on a bit longer," I say.

His breathing starts to slow until his heart stops.

"No," I whisper, a tear rolling down my cheek.

I look at Luke and see that he's starting to close his eyes. He holds my hand and I start to cry harder.

"Luke, don't leave me. Please," I say.

"I'm trying, but I can't hold on anymore. I can't. Alex, I need to tell you something. I l-" he doesn't finish his sentence.

"Luke," I cry.

That's the last thing I remember before I die too.