Am I his?// Natepat

Chapter 3

**Time skipping to the day of the doctors appointment**

Matt's POV
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It was the day of the appointment. I woke up at 8am to make sure that I'm ready and showered. I don't know what Nates plans are before leaving but I know that I'm getting ready. I got my clothes out that I want to wear, hopped into the shower, washed my hair and got cleaned off then I got out and changed. Nate was still asleep by time I got out of the bathroom. So I go over to the bed and shook him a bit. "Hey. We have to leave in 2 hours and you have to get ready" "what time is it" "8:30" I told him. He dug his head back into the pillow. "I want to sleep more" "you have to. Your appointment is at 10 and you have to get ready" "fine. Go make breakfast" I chuckled and then went downstairs, Cloud and skip following me. Mark is still gone with Chica. So hallelujah we're alone. "Alrighty. Let's get breakfast" I fed the animals and then got some eggs going. I heard water running so I'm guessing that Nate is getting his shower. I placed the eggs on a plate and then made some toast. Carly came down and I smiled. "Good morning Carly" "morning" "what are you doing up" "couldn't fall back asleep" "bad dream?" I asked. "Yeah. Woke up at 4 couldn't fall asleep" I felt bad. "Do you want some eggs and toast. Coffee is almost done" "yeah I'll have some" "ok. Nates getting his shower, and we'll be leaving in an hour" "todays his appointment?" I nodded. Turning back to the stove and putting the eggs on a plate for Carly. The toast popped up and I placed them on the plate. I know Nate will only eat one piece of toast and so will I. Carly will only eat 1 piece as well so I got Carlys plate and handed it to her. I ate mine while Carly ate hers. "So is everything ok with Nate" "yeah he is. He's fine it's just the doctor thinks he has arthritis and we're seeing a rheumatologist at 10" "is it because of his hand" "yeah. It's gotten to the point where he can't feel it like at all" "that's not good. Glad he's seeing a doctor because that can be kind of harmful to his hand" I looked at her. I heard footsteps coming downstairs. Nate was wearing some sweats for him to be comfy while at the doctors because we don't know how long it will be. "You look comfy" Carly said with a smile. "Here's your plate" I handed him his plate and he went to the living room, not saying anything. Me and Carly shared the same look and I placed my plate in the sink and brought my toast with me. I sat down next to him. "Nate, what's wrong" he looked at me, shrugging his shoulders and went back to eating. "Babe. Please...what's wrong" he, once again, shrugged his shoulders. I sighed. I know he's not ignoring me. Is he? No he can't be. He's never ignored me before. "Nathan. Please. Answer me. Is it about today" he nodded. Wincing as he swallowed his bite. "Is it your throat to" he shook his head. "What is it" he shrugged his shoulders again. What's going on??!! "Nate. Baby...you have to talk to me. I have the right to know what's going on" I saw a few tears drop into his lap. "Babe. What's wrong" I rubbed his back as he sobbed, leaning closer to me. "I'm just scared" he told me, his voice was a whisper. I think he's been singing to much and now he's loosing his voice. "There's nothing to be afraid of. I'll be right beside you. So will Cloud" I told him. "I'm sorry to be a failure" "you are not a failure. It's not your fault" I told him. "I feel alone. And" he broke down a bit more then what he was. I tried to calm him down as much as I could but I couldn't. Cloud came over with a water bottle in her mouth and she handed me it. I opened the cap and helped him drink some of the water. "I don't know how you can deal with me" I shook my head, wiping his tears. "I deal with you because I love you we're fricken engaged. That should show you that I care very much about you. If I didn't love you this much, do you think I would stay here" he shook his head. "No" "then listen and understand me" I hugged him as he hugged back, cloud joining. "Hey cloudy" He was getting calmer. "Thank you baby" I smiled. "Your welcome" he continued to eat and then he went to the bathroom to freshen up. "That was a journey" Carly said, chuckling. "Yeah it was. I'm guessing he was starting to have a flashback and was able to block it out and just blamed stuff onto him. That's my guess" I told her with a shrug. Nate came back and looked at me. "Feeling better" I asked him. He nodded and went back to sit down and watched tv. I sighed a little and helped Carly with the dishes.