Forbidden Love

Ch40. Todoroki Shoto

The door opened and in arrived Shoto. The brother of my one true love and the last of my friends who made me feel abandoned. I motioned Shoto to take a seat beside me to which he did. Before I had the chance to say anything he was quick to speak.

"I'm sorry." he said with utter seriousness. "Not only for what I did recent but for pushing your feelings aside and hurting you."

"Shoto... do you even know what you're apologizing for? In the past I mean." I replied rather sternly.

He nodded. 

I began to recall from the moment Shoto and I met and what led to this moment. Out of all three boys... this was the most painful. That was because I truly liked Shoto...

When meeting Todoroki Shoto, I realized how broken that boy was. I realized how much pain he was in and I somewhat felt connected to him in that aspect. He told me about his past; his dad, his mom, his sibling... all for except Touya who he didn't mention.

Shoto knew about that woman who birthed me and abandoned my dad and I. He was very supportive and considerate whenever someone would ask about her, Shoto came to the rescue and switched the topic for me every time that happened.

Shoto and I were the closest out of our little group; well aside from him and Izuku. He was quiet at first, it wasn't until after the USJ incident that he began to be the one starting the conversations. And since then he always ate lunch with me. 

With Izuku who was drifting from me, Shoto became my closest friend at the time. Dad made sure to pair us as often as he could when it came to projects. We took it upon having our weekly study session every three days a week in where afterwards we went for soba and other delicious snacks.

There was something about Shoto that differed with Katsuki and Izuku. To this day it's still unclear for me. Sure he's attractive, so are the other two but... there was something Shoto had that not only resulted in admiration for him. I guess it was the fact that I saw a side of him, no one easily saw. The side of him he only let me see; his kind and innocent side. A part of me wanted to be the one to protect him...

I suppose my heart and mind has always craved for love, in which I easily developed crushes on people... but even so with Shoto it was more than a crush. Even now reflecting upon it, I realize I might have loved him at some point.

I wanted to be the one to make him smile, be there for him, shower him with affection he too craved deep down in his heart. However, that was impossible. 

Shoto and I were at the library finishing our school project when Shoto sighed as he looked at me with a gentle gaze. I felt my cheeks turning pink. But I was quick to cover it with a cough.

"Are you alright [Nickname]?" he asked concerned.

I nodded, "Oh yeah, my throat just tickled. Must be due to the dust these books hold." I lamely excused myself.

After a while, Shoto looked rather hesitant. I tilted my head and asked him what was wrong. To my surprise he didn't brush the issue off and instead asked me...

"[Name] do you like someone?"

I blinked several times with disbelief. Did he really just ask me that??? Or worse did he find out?? "I uh... well you see..."

"So you do." he concluded. I nodded with a blush. "How would... I was wondering how would you like that person confessing to you?"

His questions were odd, that's what I thought at the time given how he was. I didn't think much about it but little did I know I was close to getting my heart broken by the first time.