Not Romeo And Juliet [ Boy x Boy / Yaoi ]

Chapter 4

-Carter's POV

I felt nothing, her lips to mine. There was just nothing, almost like kissing my grandmother. Shay pulled away, eyeing me to say something.

"I felt nothing, grandma." I said bluntly, sighing a bit, laying my head in my hands.

She dramatically gasped putting a hand to her chest. After her chance at the moment for drama she got up and sighed pulling both hands behind her head.

"Carter...." she dragged, walking back and forth.

"I know, I know." I already knew what she was going to say, I just didn't want to come to terms with it.

"I don't know why you're doing this, Carter no matter how many times I kiss you, I'm pretty sure you're not going to feel anything." She looked at me with a sorry face.

"I guess you're right. But I still don't know, maybe I'm just not use to it?"

She shook her head at me, walking back to me she set a hand on my shoulder. "I think you just need to stop lieing to your self. You kissed Matty, and you like it. Feelings don't lie...I have to get to class, the music room will be vacant for the rest of the day, if you want stay in here until after school and we'll go to drama club together." She winked at me and left the class room.

I did as she suggested and stayed in the same spot for the next three hours. Shay did as she said she would, and came back and got me for drama club; which wasn't even my idea to join, Matty was being forced to be in the play by the Principle A.K.A his dad. I agreed to be in it after hours of begging and bribes of watermelon suckers.

We walked in the chatter filled room with poems and quotes painted on the wall, rows of rainbow colored chairs stood in front of the small practice stage. Me and Shay were just decoration people, along with two of our other friends.

"Carter! Shay! Can you help me with this god for shaken wall of plastic foam!" Alex yelled lifting the "wall" the best she could. We rushed over giving her relief and laid it on a shelf. "Thank you." She said stretching. Alex was short in my eyes. Most people toke her for a guy then a girl mostly because of her short brown hair and guys clothing. She's a hot-headed person with a temper of thousand, piss her off and you won't see the sun ever again. But no one knew her better then us and of course, Eren.

"Alex, wheres my pencil? I know you have it." Eren, a girl that can't stand boring people and or stupid ones. She's more simple then you would think, short hair like Alex but longer bangs, and dyed red hair. Clothing nothing spacial she didn't like showing her body so it was always jeans and a black jacket with a band shirt. Alex rolls her eyes and pulls out the pencil from her back pocket, sticking her tongue out. "Stop stealing my pencils, you thief."

"I'm not stealing I'm just borrowing without permission."

"Sweetie that's called stealing." Shay said taking her cousins side.

"So, Carter. Shay told is about.." Eren began nonchalantly. But was cut off by the the drama teacher calling us to attention. "OK, lets get this started. Where is my Romeo and Juliet?" I glared at Shay and she just shrugged her shoulders, lifting her hands up. Why would she tell them? God what is wrong with these people?

"Your Juliet is right here." Victoria said walking from the corner she was in, along with her posse consisting of two. I didn't know their names but they look as preppy as you'd expect from a couple of cheerleaders; White bows perfectly holding their hair back and green and white uniforms to show school pride, go gators.

"Where is Romeo?" Miss Sego asked, fixing her brown hair. The door opened with a thud and out pops Romeo himself.

"Sorry I'm late. I-" He trailed off when he spotted me and Shay. He looked disappointed, no sad with a hint of mad. I raised a drown at him but he just looked away walking to the teacher explaining why he was late.

"What's up with him?" She whispered.

"Probably just mad because I ran off this morning." I whispered back. We went to the back of the room, and started painted bricks and a door on the foam wall that almost killed Alex.

"Okay, what part were me at-Oh right the death kiss. Romeo Juliet on stage, I hope you've been practicing, Matt." I froze. Oh he practice, did he ever. I covered my face with my free hand. My checks burned and I couldn't help but slightly smile, but a saddening feeling came along with it. Shay along with Alex, and Eren looked me. Shay smiled while Alex wiggled her eyebrows and Eren, well she just looked away, pulling Alex with her to finish the vase they were painting. I bit my lower lip and turned to watch, only causing my heart to break in two when I saw Matty bent down near her face, resenting his lines.

"O, lips doors of breath..." She laid there. Pretty, yes. She was better for him, he didn't feel that same way I did for him, whatever that feeling is. Maybe Shay was right, I liked his lips to me, his soft lips. I shock my head, controlling my thoughts. Still watching as Matty lean closer. He peered to me eyes full of white, eyes locked with mine.

"Sealed with a ritchuse kiss...." And they met, she lifted kissing him back, enjoying herself.

I couldn't breath, I refused. Shay saw me in distress and laid a hand on my shoulder. I shock it off, taking a step away from her. I dropped my paint brush and ran, opening the doors I ran down the far end of the hall, near the back doors of the school, falling to my knees. I was crying, tears ran down my face with no control, I let  go. I didn't care anymore. I was done. I had to know, I have to. I heard foot steps from behind.

No, please god. Why now?

"Carter? Are you OK?" Matty ran, siding to my side. Lifting my face to his. "Why are you crying?" He whipped my tears away with his soft warm hands and cupped my face, god his hands. His green eyes sparkled through the glass of his thick glasses, those devilish eyes that murdered me.

I took slow deep breaths. Don't do it! I told myself, but my body wanted something else. DON'T FUCKING DO IT. I slammed my eyes shut. Grabbing both sides of his hips, and stood on my knees, making our faces eye level. Quickly, and forcefully drew my lips to his.

I kissed him as hard as I could, hoping for him to fight back. But he didn't. It burned to feel him to me, like fire. It was a bliss of Heaven but along came Hell. I got lost, welded by my hands and pulled him closer, my heart raced pressed against his hard chest. For a second I felt him pull forward voluntarily, kissing me back. I pulled away struck by lightening. I was spinning, mind blank. The relief I need had come and I felt I was on cloud nine.

I looked at his face, nothing it told me nothing. My high went away and I jerked back, and attempted to stand on my weak shattered legs. "I-I'm sorry.." I panted my sentence, speaking the best I could. His opened his mouth to say something but I gave him no time too. I ran like the flash, pushing the exit doors open and fleeing for my life.

WHY? WHY DIDN'T I JUST SIT THERE!?

I ran, and ran and ran until I made it to the Church house. Not but two miles away from the school. I hurried in falling to my knees, again. Catching my breath the best I could.

I sat in the middle. Peers of seats on both sides of me. I lifted my head to the cross on the stand in front, where the priest would give the mass.

Tears ran down my face again as I thought of all the lessons I was taught in this very room. Told: Never to like the same sex, never give in the the devils fruit. But what can I do? I sinned, and I like that sin. But why did it make me cry? I take a deep death, cupping my hands in front of my chest. Telling myself I did what I had to, to know truth. And I got what I was looking for. I liked kissing Matty, and I liked him. No way around it. Only problem is just, he doesn't feel that same. I finally bow my head, and pray.

"Forgive me father, for I have sinned. And I might do so again...."