FACELESS

a letter

I hope you can forgive me

I'm just somebody with a body that doesn't feel like my own,

have you talked to your neighbor?

I think they're selling their house for half of what they bought it for,

do you feel like you're grown up? because I do

and I feel like winter doesn't come when it has to

but if you see me up and down your street,

I hope you say hi because you might not get me twice,

and even after all these years, the broken vases and your ugly screaming faces,

I hope you can forgive me...because I already did,

Take it for what it is, a beautiful masterpiece, a fucked up piece of wannabe poetry,

But I still feel you all around the corners,

my parents told me I should get out of town, 

hopefully, the absence of you can help clear my mind,

I hope

I truly do,

for a day you finally become brave, 

get that ticket you craved since you were eight, fly to Paris, make new friends,

I hope you forget all about your sister's mistakes,

hope you call your mother twice a day,

and after all,

I hope you forgive me as I did to myself.