Not Yet Alone

Chapter 4

Every word I say, every thing I do, and every breath I take presents an opportunity. An opportunity that has the potential to change a life and give glory to God.

Originally, I had doubts that I was doing the right thing. I had no way of knowing if God was pleased by what I did. But I realized that no matter what, God knew my heart. I may not be doing exactly what his plan was, but by glorifying God, I was doing his will.

With every message I sent, I felt like I was allowing God to cover me with his blood. Each lie, misdeed, or sin I possessed was forgotten.

I began to send messages every chance I got. I stayed up late and woke up early just in order to save one more life. Through my warnings, I prevented kidnappings, murders, and rapes. My power has the ability to extend around the world, so I could stop terrorist attacks as well.

It did take a toll on me, but it was completely worth it. I was preventing someone else from having to live through misery like I had.

Police and FBI agents considered me as an angel because I let them know exactly when, where, and what they should do.

But I am not an angel. I am just a person trying to make a difference.

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I do not regret making the choice I made.

Now, I no longer plod through life completely unaware of everything else around me. I know everything about it all.

To this day, I am eighteen years old. Whenever my parents have a birthday, they are never very excited. My mother doesn't like birthdays because to her, it just means that she is one year closer to her death. However, I disagree on that. Birthdays are not meant to be considered depressing.

When I turned eighteen, I considered it to be an accomplishment. I had successfully lived through eighteen whole years of my life without dying. My next goal is to complete my senior year without incident.

History class was nearing the end for the day. I really hadn't paid the least bit of attention, but that was alright. I can read minds.

For the last ten minutes of class, my teacher played CNN Student News. It was basically a little news clip that let students in on the big things going on in their world. Today's show featured The Providence.

I already know everything there is to know about The Providence because I am The Providence, but it is still interesting to hear about me from the world's point of view.

I keep myself anonymous so there is much speculation about The Providence. One of the ideas is that The Providence is a computer that monitors facebook accounts and uses the information to warn people. But no one has figured out how a computer could figure out everything by itself.

The most popular suggestion is that God himself is The Providence. That idea really isn't too far from the truth. I am not God, but I couldn't do anything without God.

The bell rang, dismissing me to go to my next class. I stopped at a vending machine in the hall to get some caffeine. It has only been eight hours since I had any, but I am already feeling with drawls.

I know it isn't very good to drink so much caffeine, but that is the only way I can stay awake. I was up until one last night sending warnings and such to people, and I woke up at five thirty to do the same this morning. My schedule practically requires me to be addicted to caffeine.

I bought a bottle of Mountain Dew, which I instantly chugged, and a poptart, which I saved for later because my next class is music and no eating is allowed in that class. The caffine kicked in right away, and I began to feel better and more alert. Ah, Mountain Dew is just wonderful.