LIFE

Dumb

Dumb (/dʌm/)

adjective
1. Temporarily unable or unwilling to speak
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When is the last time you ever feel dumb? I mean the real dumb.
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Mine bila aku terima orang baru masuk dalam circle aku. Again.
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I rarely fall for someone. I hate commitment. Even life circle aku pun tak banyak manusia yang aku sayang (atau kenal).
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So if I ever did that, if I ever allow someone to be in my circle..that's mean they're really something. They're those I can't live without.
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And bila dah start having someone special, semua benda berubah. Semua jadi lain.
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Totally out of the blue.
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They'll not give you what you deserve. They treat you like you're an option when all you do is giving them all your affection and commitment.
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Life isn't fair is it?
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And that's why, I hate it when I ever cared for someone who never cared about me. I hate it when I give everything I could and all I get is being an option for them.
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No I didn't hate them. I have no rights to hate them anyway.
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It's just me.
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Well I guess I'm my own problem.
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I should've known earlier what type of person they are.
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Because at the end of the day —
I'm still not enough am I?
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And I'm sorry for that. I'm sorry for not being good.
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Also to myself; I'm sorry I'm dumb. I'm sorry I keep on hurting you over and over again.
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Pov; I guess there's no motivation words for today huhu sorry all (sob)