I hate you but I love you (Demi Lovato fanfiction)

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Milia's POV
'Wake up baby-girl, Demi's home,' Dallas's voice rang through my ear.

I groaned, lifting the covers over my head once again while helplessly trying to fall asleep again. I have no mood to face the devil today.

'C'mon,' Dallas tried again.

I sighed and sat up in bed.

'I'm up,' I stated with my croaky voice as I rubbed my eyes.

'Be down in 5,' Dallas smiled while walking out of my room.

Here's the thing, I absolutely love my sisters, especially Dallas and Madison, Demi... not so much. Yes, she does hate me, but after all, she's still my sister.

I walked into the kitchen, smiling at everyone but avoiding Demi. I grabbed an apple and went back up, throwing it away.

A few minutes later, I went down again and sat myself onto the couch, eyes fixing on the TV that was turned on.

My eyes followed as soon as Demi reached for the remote and changed the channel. I rolled my eyes and pulled out my phone while walking back up to my room.

I just know that I can never fit into this family as soon as Demi reaches home. Everyone forgets about me as soon as she steps foot into this house.

Someone then knocked on my door.

'If you're not Dallas or Maddie, I don't want to talk to you,' I stated simply as the door opened. I turned around and came face to face with an emotionless Demi.

'I said-'

'Oh, I heard what you fucking said, but I want to talk to you- in fact, Mom forced me to talk to you,' she spat.

'Then... tell Mom that I don't want to fucking talk to you,' I spat back.

'Fine, fat bitch,' she turned around and walked out sarcastically as I gave her that finger behind her back.

I went back to scrolling through Twitter as soon as she wasn't in sight.

Soon enough, my door opened again. But this time, it was Mom.

'You need to talk to Demi, you can't be avoiding her for the rest of your life, you know.'

'I know,' I mumbled softly and looked down. 

'I'll give the two of you till the end of this week to settle your relationship or else I'll send you to stay with her for the summer break, today's Thursday, you have tomorrow and Saturday... oh and I'm telling Demi'

'But-'

'No buts, we made a deal,' Mom stated simply.

'But I didn't-'

'I don't care if you agreed or not, it's gonna happen, so go and talk to your sister now, or don't, it's your choice,' she said as she left the room. 

I groaned as I stood up from my bed, letting my legs take me to my bathroom. There's no way in hell am I gonna stay with that bitch. I locked the bathroom door behind me and sat down on the floor, pulling out my box of blades. I chose the sharpest one out of them all and dragged it across my wrist as my demons consumed my mind.

Fat

Worthless

No one wants you, freak

Once I snapped out of my mini mania, I wiped the blood from my cuts before wiping my tears. God, why was I such a cry baby? 

I stood up slowly and hopped onto bed, sobbing myself to sleep. 

-*-*-

'Baby-girl, wake up, it's dinner,' Dallas called. I felt special. No one called me baby-girl other than Dallas.

'I-I'm not hungry.' For fuck's sake Milia, stop stuttering.

'But you skipped lunch, and you didn't eat a lot for breakfast either,' Dallas smiled sadly.

Yeah... no one knows about my eating disorder yet... wait, fuck that, no one will know of it. It's one my secrets.

'Uh... yeah I'm not really feeling well,' I let out an awkward laugh as I tried to push Dallas away from my bed. She finally nodded and left my room, shutting the door behind her. 

She appeared a few seconds later, asking, 'Do you need any meds?' I shook my head, laying my head down on my pillow again.

-*-*-

The next time I woke up, it was 2am. And yep, you guessed it right, I had a nightmare. I shot up in bed, screaming, sweating, panicking and crying all at the same time. 

'Shhhh baby, you're safe, no one's gonna hurt you,' someone came into my room as she rocked me back and forth in the dark, hugging me tightly. I squinted at her. Demi. What the hell was she doing in my room? Didn't she hate me? Why did she call me baby? Only Dallas was allowed to call me that. 

I sniffed as I sobbed into her shirt, wetting it. After everything ended, Demi stood up. I pulled her shirt, making her look down at me. 

'C-Can y-you sleep with me? Just for tonight,' I asked quietly. I was trembling so bad, I didn't want to be left alone. I knew everything will go back to normal tomorrow - the bitchiness and the name calling - so I tried to enjoy things while it lasted.

She sighed, climbing into bed with me. 

'Goodnight,' she breathed into my ear. 

I didn't say a word as I slowly let sleep take over me.