I hate you but I love you (Demi Lovato fanfiction)

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Demi's POV
I decided to go up to Milia and admit my mistakes. And, Mom was right, we couldn't go hating each other for life.

I climbed the stairs up to her room and opened the door slowly, only to find her in deep sleep. I sighed, going down to make lunch.

I couldn't believe that ever since I came out of rehab I treated my little sister like shit. I needed to change.

After an hour of pacing around the kitchen, I heard footsteps coming down the stairs.

'We need to talk,' I told her.

'Fine, but make it quick,' she replied with no emotions on her face.

'Let's sit.'

We walked over to the couch and each took a seat.

'I'm so fucking sorry about how I treated you ever since I came out of rehab... it's like I completely forgot about you, I'm so sorry I've been a terrible sister for the past 2 years, and most importantly, I'm so sorry for breaking our promise... the promise I made to never ever stop loving you, Milia. I'm so sorry I broke it. From now on, I would like to start our relationship anew... if you let me?' I looked at her with hopeful eyes as she looked down.

Will she accept my apology? God, I fucking hope so.

A small smile appeared on her face as she nodded slowly.

I, on the other hand, was smiling widely.

I opened my arms and hugged her. She didn't hug back for the first few seconds and was tense, but soon enough relaxed into it and wrapped her arms around me.

She was quite skinny, I could feel her bones. I was worried that she might have an eating disorder, but that thought soon left my head.

'Lunch?' I smiled as she grabbed my hand and we headed to the kitchen counter and sat down.

Milia's POV
I was glad Demi wanted to fix our relationship. I was all happy until she mentioned one thing.

'Lunch?'

I nodded slowly while grabbing her hand and heading to the kitchen counter.

I could purge it up later.

As she placed a bowl of mac n cheese in front of me, I gagged silently. I stared at it for a few seconds before stuffing some pieces into my mouth, I didn't want to be suspicious, especially when Demi had an eating disorder before and knew the signs.

Before I knew it, half the plate was gone. I looked up to see Demi staring at her phone, so I quickly dumped the rest of the mac n cheese into the bin.

Get rid of the food, you're fat enough.

That's what I'm gonna do.

After making sure both my bedroom and bathroom doors are closed, I knelt down and purged out the food that I ate. It felt good getting rid of all the content.

Good girl.

I then flushed the toilet, popping a mint into my mouth and walked out, jumping onto my bed.

That was when my phone beeped.

Unknown: hey fatty, killed yourself yet?

Of course it has to be Lynette, the oh-so-popular girl in my school who has a ton of friends and bully one girl. And that one girl just so happens to be me.

Unknown: why don't you do us, everyone a favor and die already?

Unknown: oh, just a reminder, you're fat, and will never be as beautiful as your sisters.

She's right. Demi has the perfect hair, face and body. So do Madison and Dallas. I slowly turned my head to the mirror, staring at myself.

Ugly fat bitch.

Demi's perfect.

Dallas's perfect.

Madison's perfect.

You? Are a piece of shit.

They don't deserve you.

No one does.

I was about to break down when my door opened.

I looked to the door to see Demi. I removed my gaze away from her and looked down, if I do, I'll break down more.

'Milia, what do you wanna do- hey Milia, what's wrong baby?' I guess Demi could sense my sadness.

'Nothing, Dems, I'm fine,' I cracked a weak fake smile.

She walked over and sat down next to me.

'We both know that's a lie, now what's wrong?' She lifted my chin, causing me to stare into her beautiful brown eyes.

I shook my head vigorously while tears streamed down my face non stop and my breathing picked up quickly.

Demi leaned in and whispered encouraging words in my ear as I took deep breaths. Once I calmed down, Demi opened her mouth to say something but I shook my head.

'Can we please not talk about it? I wanna watch a movie instead,' I asked quietly.

'Of course baby, c'mon,' she picked me up and began walking out of the room.

Demi's POV
As I picked her up, I noticed that she was actually really light, and that made me worry, because not only was she light, she was super skinny as well. I sighed, wanting to break the question to her.

"Milia, how heavy are you?" I looked at her as fear instantly crossed her eyes. Something was wrong.

"Um.... 110 pounds...?" She sounded unsure.

"When was the last time you weighed yourself?" I asked cautiously, while setting her onto the couch, as I didn't want to hit a nerve or something.

"I dont know," she mumbled as she looked down and played with her hands

"It's okay baby, what movie or show do you wanna watch?" I reached for the remote.

Her eyes immediately lit up as I mentioned the word 'show'.

"Dynasty?" She looked up at me and smiled as I nodded, turning it on as Liz Gillies, or Fallon Carrington, appeared on the screen.