The Conflicted Color Pallet

xxxiii

I'm really not to blame.
I mean,
I lost many people
within three years,
and almost lost one to cancer. How do you think I was going to react to that?
Did you think I'd brush it off like dust on my shoulder?
No. It hit me hard.
I had to grow up tough
and do it fast.
I couldn't let people know how I actually felt,
I'm not a pity case.
I held back my emotions
and let them sink me likes rocks for a little while,
and I am okay with that.
I have my own methods of dealing with things,
and I'm sorry but you're just not apart of them.
It wasn't something I could control.
It just happened.
I needed some way out,
and my you were not my answer.
I am sorry.