Can't Let Go - An SVU fic

Chapter 2

Six a.m. the following morning, Nick left his house to go for his morning run and was surprised to see Amanda standing at the bottom of the stairs.

"Good morning" she said, startling him as he was locking the door and causing him to drop his keys.

"Damn it Rollins!" he exclaimed while trying to catch his breath, he wasn't angry, just surprised as he bent to pick up his keys.

"Sorry" she apologized as she ascended the stairs, staring at his shirtless, chiseled torso. "I'm here"

"For what?" he asked, his heart still pounding from the fright she'd given him.

"You said last night that we would talk more tomorrow... it's tomorrow."

"I didn't mean - don't you have to be at work?" he asked, hoping for an out.

"Not till noon" she smiled, never taking her eyes from him as she sipped her coffee "We gonna go inside or...?"

He paused for a moment, weighing his options and decided that the best thing would be to get it over with, sighing as he unlocked his door and pushed it open.

"Yeah; come on in." he said, already feeling as if he'd begun the day with a mistake as Rollins happily walked past him and into his home. this break would not be as clean as he'd hoped it would be.

...

"Are you hungry? I could whip up breakfast for you" Amanda offered once Nick was inside the house.

"No; I'm good" he said as he took a seat on the sofa, she quickly sat down beside him - close beside him, a bit too close for his taste so he got up and sat in the armchair.

"So what did you want to talk about?" she asked, giving him her full attention

"It's not that I wanted... I really thought that we said all we needed to say last night.

"At first, I'll admit that I just wanted to get as far away from you as I could in that moment. You hurt me"

"I know I did but Amanda, you have to know that it was never my intention to cause you pain. I care about you and I respect you, I just didn't know that you had gotten so deep into this thing we had."

"Thing..." she mused. "Nick, we were more than just a thing to me; we are more than just a thing"

"Amanda, we can still be friends but-"

"You said that you care about me and that you respect me?" she asked

"And I do"

"Then respect me enough to tell me the truth"

"I don't know what truth you're looking for" he said honestly

"Who is she?"

"She, who?"

"The other woman"

"There is no other woman!"

"Of course there is!" she yelled as she stood up "There's always the other woman; men only leave because of the other woman!"

"Amanda..."

"Just tell me" she begged "Is it someone I know?"

"Amanda..."

"It is, isn't it? Is it Olivia?"

"Olivia? What the hell... she's my boss!" he yelled, now annoyed and got up to walk away from her

"I'm not stupid Nick, I see the way you look at her!"

"This is insane!"

"Insane huh? Then why aren't you denying it?"

"Even if I did feel something for Olivia, she would never return it and it has nothing to do with this situation!"

"So is that it? You can't have her so you use me as a filler?"

"That's bullshit and you know it!"

'No, what I know is that I trusted you and you turned out to be just like every other man. I thought you were different... shame on me!" tears were falling freely down her face

"I'm sorry that I hurt you and I'm sorry that you feel used"

"Then stay!" she begged, throwing her arms around him and weeping. Unsure of what to do, he paused for a moment then deciding that a hug couldn't hurt, he reluctantly put his arms around her to comfort her.

"It's gonna be alright" he said "Just..." his words were cut short when she pressed her lips to his and kissed him.

"I love you Nick! Please don't do this, please!" she cried as he tried to pull her arms from around his neck.

"Amanda stop it!" he demanded as he continued to wrench her arms but she was stronger than he'd anticipated.

"Nick please!"

"STOP IT!" he yelled as he finally yanked her off, pushing her away and causing her to lose her footing and fall, hitting her face on the edge of the coffee table, horrifying Nick. "Oh my god!" he cried as he bent down to her and took her in his arms, his stomach tying itself in a knot.

"I'm ok" she said dully as she sat up and touched her fingers to her cheek.

"Let me see" he said as he gently moved her hand away from her face, angry with himself when he saw blood. "You're bleeding"

"It's just a scratch" she replied as he skimmed his fingertips over her cheekbone, she couldn't help but revel in his touch and in spite of the terrible throbbing pain in her face, she could feel herself moistening as she looked up into his eyes

"I'm so sorry" he sincerely apologized

"It was an accident" she said as she looked up at him, tears in her eyes. "Nick, Please - if we have to say goodbye... not like this, please. Just let me feel you one more time.

"Amanda..."

"Please, Nick" she knew that he wouldn't be able to refuse her while she was lying injured in his arms; an injury that he'd caused. He looked down at her for another moment before standing and helping her to her feet.

"It wouldn't be right" he refused, leaving her heartbroken

"So that's it?" she asked, more tears falling.

"I'm gonna get the first aid kit' he said after a brief pause

"You know what, don't bother! We don't need anything from you!" she said and turned to leave

"Wait, we?"

"It's what I had planned to tell you last night before you told me it was over... I'm pregnant."

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So now I have 3 Rollins stories going all at once; so if you can't get enough of our favorite blonde detective, check out 'Hers To Bear' and "Over Her Head" anyway, thoughts?