until the end-

chapter 1

i had just woken up, same morning announcements, same people, same dread. "uhhgk" i said rolling out of bed. i didn't feel like getting ready today so i let my one yellow eye free from a contact and my freckles exposed. i lazily put on some sweats, i was already wearing an oversized t-shirt that i stole from monokumas office. i put on some mitch matched socks. one christmas one halloween. i was bored so i decided to skip breakfast and go annoy monokuma. tho he could kill me at any second i didn't care. i was already suicidal as it is. the only reason i hadn't killed myself yet was because of shuichi. but he liked kaede- atleast im pretty sure. "oh mister best principle ever~" i sang as he turned around in his chair. "what do you want kid" he went easier on me then the other students....i'm not sure why though, maybe it was something about myself before the killing game. i'm not sure but that didn't matter. "well i'm bored, your here, so why don't we stir some things up~ nehehe" in all reality i just wanted to push his buttons enough so he'll either break and give me the information i want, or just straight up kill me "eh what were ya thinking" he seemed almost- interested. weird. "well i was wondering why we don't remember anything from before the killing game" he sighed as i moved closer and sat on his desk. "and what do i get out of this" he was obviously curious. "well~" i paused..."well? what is it" he said even more curious but also annoyed "i'll help you come up with motives and execute them properly, if you give me the info i want" i said my facade beginning to drop. i still managed though. "sounds like a deal- but if you tell anyone....i will bring punishment" i giggled- i liked the idea of getting what i wanted out of him. "what do you wanna know" i looked at him. "only if you tell the truth, you may be a robot but i can still see through your lies~" i teased "just tell me what you want t on know kid"......"1. tell me who the mastermind is 2. give me my memories back 3. tell me how to end the game and 4. tell me what happens after the game."........"neheheheh do we have a deal?" i asked putting my hand out "yes" he said shaking it. i can't believe it. i walked in there just to have some fun and annoying him- possibly get him to end my life, but i was going to help them get out of the killing game. i mean my original intention was to kill myself and take down kaito with me so the execution wouldn't work right so i made them all hate me so it wouldn't hurt them, but maybe i didn't have to......"meet me in my office tonight right after the night announcements and i'll tell you upupupup"..... i walked out and went to go grab some panta. i mean that was the only thing i really put in my body anyway.

after while of just sipping panta and drawing the nighttime announcements came on. i quickly slipped out of my room and headed to monokumas office. it was big- almost like a actual principles office in a normal school. on the way i grabbed some panta. *knock*knock* i then opened the door. there he was. he was sitting at his desk and had a computer open facing toward him. "sit down please upupup" i sat and started sipping on my panta. "so, i don't have time for introductions so i'll get straight into it." he turned the laptop toward me. it simply read 'killing harmony before game student' "what is this supposed to be?" i said sarcastically. "it's all of your pre- game selfs. everyone before the killing game" i was shocked. was i finally gonna get my memories back, remover my life. i guess what was happening didn't really sink into me until now. the video flashed- i was so.....shy.... shuichi was weird and percy but i actually liked it. kaede hated me. miu liked me. rantaro- hurt me. and so much more. once the video was done monokuma started speaking "now for your memories. once i give you these back i'll explain. you shouldn't remember anything until you wake up tomorrow your personality will be the same as know you'll just have the memories~" he grabbed a syringe and injected it into my shoulder- and covered it with a fucking monokuma bandaid- uh anyway. "now let's begin. who is the mastermind?" i asked hesitantly suddenly not want to know the truth. "tsumugi~ the one and only" surprisingly i wasn't shocked. i mean she was suspicious. "but i may have you work with her, for being the mastermind she is pretty dumb-" "how do we get out of this game and what happens afterward?" i asked in more of a demanding tone. "jeez kid calm down"...."just tell me~" i said sarcastically "to end the game you have to kill everyone-" "WHAT?!!?!?!" "you didn't let me finish- everyone but three people, then you'll all wake up in the hospital, this is a vr game~ your dearest friend kaede and rantaro are just in comas until the game ends~" i was in shock. i was gonna be the one to help end the killing game. "i-i uh when do you want the next motive to be?" i questioned. "on friday" (it's monday) "i'll give you a week~ upupupup ba bye" he said waving as i got up and took my half empty panta can with me. i decided to grab a snack before i went to bed. it was around 12 am. i walked into the kitchen and saw suichi there drinking water and reading. "hey shumai" i said as i walked over to the fridge and got out bread and cheese, i was gonna make myself a grilled cheese sandwich, since i was a very picky eater and anything other than that made me wanna through up- i keep telling myself that i'm just picky when i'm reality panta and grilled cheese were my safe foods.....i didn't wanna admit it tho i just kept telling myself that i'm fine "hey kichi" he said smiling toward me closing his book. me and him have gotten a lot closer since the start of the killing game, i assumed it has been around a month almost two. "whatcha doing up?" i asked- i was lowkey really suspicious coming from the opposite way of my dorm. "couldn't sleep, kaedes death is kinda getting to me still, but she's in a better place than this stupid place" he said sitting on the counter. "y-yea, i'm sure her being gone is really hard for you shumai" i paused a smile almost slipping from my face. i men's shuichi would get to see he again after all this torture was done. i didn't let it escape my lips tho. "h-hey kokichi?"..."yea shuichi?".....he paused "we're you jealous of kaede?"- what?!?- how could he tell?!?? could he see through my lies- "w-what why would i be jealous of her" i said in my same teasing tone. "so you were jealous of her" he could tell. "i- yea- b-but" he cut me off- i don't know why i opened up to him- i mean it wasn't like i could lie to him anyway "i thought so, but don't be kichi. i have eyes for you and only you." he said getting off the counter and stepping toward me. my face overcome with blush. he cupped my small face in his hands and looked at me with a soft smile. "shu-shuichi i-" did he really like- well more like love me back "i love you kokichi" he said looking away. i could see he was blushing- i couldn't believe this all was happening so fast. "shuichi i love you too but- i-" he cut me off with a kiss. this was actually happening. i was less worried about having a relationship in the middle of a killing game, now knowing what's gonna happen after wards. "i'm sorry if this is all happening to soon" he said taking his hands off my face. "no it's fine- i just am surprised you feel the same." i hugged him and nuzzled into his chest. i heard sizzling- "oh shit my food is burning-" shuichj giggled. "h-hey don't laugh!" i said angrily only making him laugh harder. "hey shumai- i know this may be going way to fast but- do you think we can maybe try out a official relationship- we don't have to tell anyone?" he paused "i'd like that- babe~" he giggled again making me laugh too "i love you koki dough" he said hugging me. "i love you too my shuishi roll~" i said hugging back. after i ate we went back to my dorm and cuddled until i fell asleep. i loved being warm in my new lovers arms.