Slayer of Time (Demon Slayer X OC)

Chapter 11: Conflict of the Heart

Mizuki POV 

To hear the chirping in the morning from the birds outside, slowly wakes me up as I stir.  I slowly open my eyes and stare up at the ceiling above.   

Somehow my head feels somewhat clearer than last night.  I don't feel refreshed and I don't feel that much better.  But I must come to understand that things are going to be thins way.  Though each time I try to sort our my feelings and understand what's going on, my heart feels as if it is being torn in half. 

I think this is the feeling of abandonment?  Possibly something else, but honestly Sato-san's words hurt.  I feel upset that I have to leave this place, it's been my second home.  I have learned many things and gotten stronger.  It holds dear memories.  Just thinking that I have to leave everything behind and face the world, where I might not even be strong enough terrifies me.

But more than anything.... I feel conflicted between acknowledging this unknown feeling about this upcoming marriage between Michikatsu and how I see him.  I just know that Michikatsu is dear to me, along with Sato-san.  They are precious people to me in this world, but saying goodbye earlier than I thought.....Here I am, thinking that I would leave this place in 2 years when I'm 18.  But-

I sigh out ending my rambling thoughts and get out of the futon, dusting it off and putting it away nicely like it has always been.  I smile slightly as I look at the futon and this small area.  "Hm. Even if you aren't here, I still feel somewhat calmer now that I stayed here.  Maybe it was the feeling of Yoriichi being here mentally with me..."  I mumble to myself as I stretch my body before leaving the room. 

Once I'm done stretching my body I get up and leave.  I look up to the morning sky to see the sun hide slightly behind the clouds in the light blue sky.  "I have lots of work starting today...."  

With that I hurridly enter the main house and make my way back into my room, where I get dressed into my everyday clothes and head to the kitchen to start breakfast.  

Soon Michikatsu and Sato-san come out and sit down at the table as I place the dishes down.  "Good morning."  I greet to the both of them without making eye contact.  When I see them, I can't help but get nervous and feel unsure of myself.  I want to act normal like I've been until I can sort out my own issues and problems.  

"Morning." I hear Michikastu and Sato-san say to me.  I could feel their gazes on me as I finish up setting the table.  

Michikatsu POV

This morning, it somehow feels different.  I'm not sure what, but something feels off.  Maybe it was the fact that I had a hard time sleeping last night and couldn't get my mind off of Mizuki.  Ever since I saw her after dinner, I could tell something was bothering her, but she said she was fine.  

Maybe it was the fact that I'm getting married, that had caught her by surprise.  It wasn't a secret from father, he had told me before as we were young that he wanted me to succeed our family and I would need to marry a girl.  But I didn't think it would be now. 

To be honest I don't really mind who I marry, father says that she is a lovely girl.  But I can't help but wonder or ask myself these questions.  'Is she warm, gentle, but strong.  Is she lovely, does she smile with complete warmth from her heart and make delicious food.  Will she keep me company and not leave my side when I need her? Will she be understanding but also give me space when I need it?  Can she make jokes or can we have a conversation where we can enjoy the silence between us? Will she be able to understand me?'

All of these questions come to my Mind through the night.  I have this itching feeling that bugs my heart.  I had knew this day would come but on the inside....I was shocked? Surprised? Unsure?