Butterfly (clarke/you/Lexa)

I'm fine.

I been updating like crazy, which I don't mind, writing is fun even though I'm not good at it.
Enjoy
Warning! Mention of self harm!!!
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Y/n's POV
One month after the encounter

It's been a mouth since I last saw Clarke, Lexa and the others. I keep having nightmares, breakdowns, I barely eat, I cutted alot more, I barely get any sleep.

If you look at me, you can definitely see something wrong first sight, I always keep getting worse and worse.

I been thinking of heading back to TonDC, I don't know who to go to about this. I'm sure no one can help me, now it isn't only the ones at Mount Weather I killed, but the people from the pit too.

I am brought out of my thoughts when I hear a knock at the door, I jolt up and quickly grab my dagger, I slowly make my way to the door quietly and look through the hole on the door, there I see lexa, Clarke, anya and Marie, also luke.

I slowly open the door, they gasp when they see me, Luke rushes in and picks me up in a bone-crushing hug, I hug back immediately crying into his shoulder.

My dogs step forward slowly, starting to growl, I put my hand up to stop them.

Luke realizes how light I am and carefully puts me down, and looks at the others with a concerned expression.

"Hi" I say weakly, catching everyone's attention. I turn around and walk to the couch, "come in and shut that door" I say trying to raise my voice so they can hear me as I walk off to the couch and sit down.

Lexa makes her way other and sits next to me as clarke sits on the other side of me, for some reason, them being here along with marie and Luke, makes me feel alot better which confuses the hell out of me.

Lexa sighs and gently places her hand on my back to get my attention and takes a deep breathe before speaking "you have to come with us, Y/n" she says gently, I don't wanna argue, I can't be on my own anymore so I simply nod.

Everyone has a soft smile on their faces but they all still look worried, I cough and everyone quickly frowns.

I get up and head to the kitchen, everyone follows and I start packing the food I have, it isn't much but it'll do, they slowly help and Also stuff in my room.

To be honest, I don't think I'll make it all the way to TonDC, they don't need to know that though.

Once I'm all packed up, we head to the door, I call to my dogs and they follow suit.
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3 hours later,
On the way to TonDC
Lexas POV

I'm keeping an close eye on Y/n, she is very pale, skinny, and has bags under her eyes, is walking lazily, I really thought she'll put up a fight for coming with us, I guess she can sense she's unable to be alone anymore. She clearly looks like she's unable to be on her own, let alone walk.

Luke speaks up, whispering so Y/n doesn't hear, "something is seriously wrong, she's very light. She has ton of food but doesn't eat?, I don't understand." we look back at Y/n once we hear her say "Halt" to her dogs and stops for a min, she coughs and falls to her knees.

I quickly run over with marie, clarke, and Luke, I crouch infront of her, "please speak to me babygirl" I whisper, pleading. I can't bear to see her like this" I whisper, pleading.

"I'm fine" she whispers back, her voice cracks and she slowly looks up me.

I study her for a min, getting lost in her green and blue eyes, they look so broken, I snap back into reality and pick her up bridal style and look over at clarke.

We finally make it back to camp, Y/n fell alseep hours ago, we took her straight to medical, now we're just waiting for her to wait up.

Hours pass

Some hours passed and Y/n is finally starting to wake up, we watch her open her eyes and look around the room and slowly sit up.

The lost boys run over and hug her tightly, she starts sobbing after a few mins they break apart.

"I think imma rest now, I feel um tired" she says softly, looking anywhere and everywhere but us.
She lays and closes her eyes, we leave the room allowing her to rest.

Once we exit the room, I look at Clarke and sigh. "I think there's something she's not telling us." she looks at me, and sighs "I think there's alot she's not telling us" she replies, taking my hand walking off.