Butterfly (clarke/you/Lexa)

Breakdowns

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Mention of self harm! Please please! Skip if you can't handle it!
Enjoy.
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Y/n's bunker
11 months since she ran away
Y/n's POV

I wake up and take a shower, same thing I do everyday. The past 11 months I follow the same routine, I haven't had contact with any human being for 11 months. I like it, but I do miss the lost boys, I don't know if miss the lexa, clarke and their friends.

I tend not to think about the betrayal, I think too much and hurt more. I picked up unhealthy habits, cutting, not eating, I deserve it for what I did at Mount Weather.

I Finnish my shower and cook breakfast, I sit down and begin eating, once I'm done I clean up and go back into the bathroom to brush my hair and teeth.

Once I finished, I go downstairs and grab my bag, grabbing my dagger and walking out the door, I lock the door and walk into the woods.

I enjoy walks to get my mind off everything, I sometimes wonder about the lost boys and if they ever went back to TonDC.

On my walk, I hear a pain whimper. It isn't from any human, like a dog or something. I slowly walk to the noise and find a little 2 husky puppies, they're injured, I quickly pick them up and run back to the Bunker.

Once I'm inside, I go straight to the lap and head inside, I place the two husky puppies on the table, stitch them both up and feed them.

It's just you two and me, I guess.

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6 months later
Y/n's POV

It's been 6 months since I found the husky puppies, they gotten bigger and better. Their almost full grown now, stay stayed by my side.

Now everytime, we go walking in the woods, they walk right next to me one on either side.
I named the girl Angel and the boy teddy, Teddy is bigger then Angel and is more aggressive then angel is, Angel is more of the cuddly type.

We're currently on our walk, lately the past 4 months I've been feeling like I'm being watched, it seems stronger, like more eyes this time. I stop and say "stop" to let my dogs to know to stop, they do and I look around for any sign if anyone is there.

I crouch down next to Teddy and pet him, looking around. Once I don't see anything I get up and look down at my dogs, "go home" I say as we start walking towards the bunker.

Once we reach the bunker door, I hear a twig snap and quickly turn around, before I say or do anything Angel and Teddy run towards the noise and I run after them.

Once I reach them, I see Lexa, Clarke, Raven, Bellamy and O backing away from my dogs, terrified as my dogs growling stepping towards them ready to attack.

I laugh making them look at me, shocked, I yell "halt!" and watch as my dogs sit down and stop growling.

"Y/n?" Lexa asks, confused. I walk closer between my dogs, I look at them, keeping an emotionless face, as much as I want to breakdown right now, I can't be seen as weak.

"Y/n we been out here looking for you for months! So has the lost boys." O Yells making my dogs growl, I glare at all of them.

"I don't think I really care, so please act like you haven't seen me," I say as I look down at my dogs, "home" they get up and start walking towards the bunker, before I walk away, Clarke starts speaking.

"Y/n, wait! We're sorry, I thought we were protecting our people. We heard what happened and we need you to come with us." Clarke says, she actually sounds like she's sorry, but I can't right now.

I Chuckle, tearing up shaking my head looking down, "I-I can't.." I say as I run off with my dogs, I hear their yelling and running footsteps behind me but I don't stop.

I reach the bunker and close the door once my dogs are in opening the other's don't notice, I walk over to one of there monitors that's hooked up to one of the cameras outside, they appear onto the frame and look around trying to find any clue where I went.

I see clarke and lexa hug, clarke has tears in her eyes, I feel kinda bad- No! They left you behind! You shouldn't feel bad, god idiot. I puff and look away from the screen, I feed my dogs and go to the bathroom tearing up more.

Once I look at the mirror at myself, I see the faces at mount weather, the ones that I killed looking back at me, suddenly the room starts spinning and I scream and cry, shaking badly.

I sit on the floor about an hour, once I finally calm down, I cut and bandage my arm and head back to the living room, my dogs are laying on the couch alseep and I go to the bunker door, I need fresh air.

I open the door and step out, I look around and step forwards a few steps and more tears fall, why did I have to see them now?

I stand out there for few mins, I turn around to head back inside to see lexa, Clarke, Raven, O and bellamy behind me blocking me from the door.

"jesus! What now!?" I groan, wiping my tears, lexa steps forward and suddenly everything starts spinning again, I look up at lexa to see behind her the people I killed at the mountain again.

"You're a murder, you killed them!" lexa says, I step back as she steps forward repeating it over and over, I scream and shake my head and once everything stop spinning, I look up and look around and see nothing, I'm alone.

I sigh and run back inside.

What now?