banana fish ep 25+ :p

9. lost hope

EIJI
"sing.......SING!"
sing came running through the door frame, he looked at me slightly confused because i was straddled on ash but then he to noticed the blood.
he pushed me off him and immediately lifted up his top, ash was still breathing his chest was rising up and falling down but it was getting less and less frequent.
"CAIN, GET OVER HEAR!" sing shouted
cain came over and put his hand firmly on the doorframe. i sat on the floor in shock whilst cain, sing and a few others lifted him onto the table, they took off his jacket and his top, they gathered information from everyone about how to deal with it.
everyone had something weather it was knowledge on stitches or basic first aid. they had enough information to save him but did they have the skill?

3 hours later...

i left the room after a few mins.
i was practically being sick! the sight of people digging around ashes stomach made me gag, it kind of made me feel like a coward
the same 2 thoughts went round and round my head for what felt like forever
1. is ash ok
did he survive the surgery? was all this for nothing??
2. did i hurt him
the weight of me pushing him over cant of helped his injury did i make it worse? did i cause it??!?!
it was natural to be worried but this worried?!?? i dont know..
i heard a door knob turning and my head shot up, sing came walking through the door frame making a lot of effort to keep the gap as small as possible... he had small flecks of ash's blood on his top and he had two blood soaked gloves in his hand. but what worried me was the hopeless, exhausted expression on his face...
i got up slowly, went over to him and asked him if he was ok. his eyes were glazed over and were stuck glaring at 1 position, without moving his eyes or body he said
"im.....fine eiji..." he spoke hesitantly
he then started moving toward the other side of the room almost zombie like.
is eyes stayed fixed on that one point
seeing sing in that state really confused me he had grown up around gangs and had seen many brutal sights but he would always brush it off.
seeing sing like that would haunt me forever.
i stood there for a few seconds in shock then entered the room ash was in. i saw him lying on the sofa with a blue blanket on him, his hair was messy and his arm was dangling off the red cushions, he was sleeping seemingly peacefully and he looked relaxed.
i looked around and saw people wrapping blood sodden tools in napkins and throwing them in the bin, everyone was silent the noise of scrunching paper and scraping metal echoed throughout the room.
cain was sitting on the arm of the red sofa ash was on, his head in his hands and his legs crossed he looked disappointed....
normally i would rush over to ash and check if he was alright but i didn't want to disturb him and cain looked like he needed attention. i went over, slowly at the pace everyone was moving around me.
"h-hey?......cain?"
his head stayed still he was displaying the same emotions as sing and that got me worried.
"cain!"
i shook his shoulders hard
it shook his head out of his hands
he slowly raised his head he had a very shocked expression on his face, as funny as it was i was still really concerned
"are....are you...ok?" i asked gently
he glanced up and let out a light hearted chuckle
"im fine eiji, just tired thats all" he said with reassuring smile on his face
he got up from his perch and gave me a hard pat on the back grabbed his coat that was lying over the red sofa and started walking away. i didn't move.. i guess i didn't feel the need to my eyes slowly moved over to ash
cain walked across the room honing the most swag he could and gleefully shouted to me "try not to kill him this time"
cains behaviour was normal and completely usual for him it was odd how quickly his emotion changed though he must have been really deep in thought and then bam he was completely fine. i have to admit the whole situation had me a little on edge.
cains mood had lit me up, i was trying so hard to stay positive after i seeing sing like that and i was worried sick about ash but cain was his usual self and that brought me a little bit of serotonin.
i allowed myself to smile, bursting out in laughter didn't seem really appropriate for the situation.
i glided over to where ashes head was and knelt down, his angelic golden hair was sprawled out over the cushion that his head was resting on and he looked so peaceful
i took a piece of his hair and tucked it he behind his ear........
i then got up and moved to where his feet where at the other end of the sofa
i gently lifted up his feet making the biggest effort not to wake him from his slumber and slowly sat down
i placed his legs over my lap and tucked the blanket under his feet so his toes wouldn't get cold and then i found myself finally relaxed,
ash is safe....
and im with ash

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art credits : へんた (@m2jam)