I'm selfish
I'm prideful
I don't like to be seen as weak
I need help
I'm an ass of a person
I never finish anything in life
I back out with excuses
I prefer to fight and make it seem like it's your fault instead of taking ownership
I'm a bully
I make myself look like the victim
I'm weak
Im fake
I'm a fraud
I need so much help I tell myself that I should kill myself and die and hope nobody remembers me
I need sooo much help Im afraid to ask for it because of my ego
I put others down so they never reach me
Im always jealous of what others have
I have the urge to cut again
I need help
I have fought so much against it that now I don't want to accept that I need the help
I make up excuses
Im weak
I need help
I feel like I'm never good enough not just for me but my mom and everyone
I everything
I just want it to end
I want my thoughts to stop being so possessive of me
I need to change
I have the help if I ask for it
I'm afraid to be happy
I'm afraid to get close to myself
I'm afraid to dance in public
I'm afraid
I need help
I just want to shower without feeling guilty of taking too much existence
I'm afraid
I don't want my mom to see me crying
I learned that crying was stupid
I just want to cry
I don't want them to be right
I don't want them to win
I don't know why
I should be happy
I should believe in myself
I should stop giving out self-love advice when I barely use it myself
I still hate myself
In the person I am becoming
I have become a bitch
I don't want to feel bad for others
I don't want others to feel bad for me
I just want to be me
I just want to do what I want without any reppercussions
I just want to let go
I want to let go of stigmas, fears, and everything that's holding me back
I ask for consistency but I barely apply it to myself
I prefer messages instead of talking to the person face to face
I'm afraid of commitment
I'm afraid of letting go
I don't know what to do
I want to let go of the what ifs
I just want it to stop
I want to make myself proud
I want to stop saying but
I want to be grateful
I want to be more than enough
I want to do more than just enough
I want to succeed
I want to be happy...
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Rosé Diaries
Teen FictionThis is not one of your normal reads. You know "The Oxygen Thief"? Well, this is just like that, I am literally writing a diary of my life and keeping myself and the characters anonymous. Sure, it doesn't help that my name is kinda on my user tag bu...
