𝐶𝑎𝑟𝑎𝑚𝑒𝑙❥ᵏ.ᵇᵃᵏᵘᵍᵒ

Blame game

5 days

"Is this person..someone I know?"

"Don't play stupid Katsuki. You know who it is.." She coughed loudly, covering her mouth in her elbow. Her eyes squinted as she refused to look at the blond. She felt awkward now that he knew who she loved, and that they were alone in the room. "Y-you don't have to do anything yet though! I know you and Sayuri-chan are a thing and everything and I don't want to be that kind of person and—."

"(Last Name)," He sternly said, clenching his fists. "We broke up."

Silence. The suffocating atmosphere blocked both of their throats as the awkwardness sent a chill down their spines. Katsuki being reminded of his painful and confusing breakup and (Name) shocked and bewildered. Was it a ray of hope for both of them? Can she finally be saved after all this suffering. Never before hearing silence had she ever felt so insecure, felt freedom, certain, never had she ever felt worse about herself as a friend. How could she not know? Did Kirishima know about this? Did Sero, Kaminari or Mina know about this? How couldn't she notice. Was it because he had so much control of his own emotions that he managed to contain it.

"Then—,"

"But I don't know if I can say it yet. I don't know if I'm so sure about you. I'm..sorry (Name). I don't know how I feel about you," His eyebrows slanted as he too, avoided her gaze.

Wearing his usual grumpy face, he shut his eyes and breathed. Slight calmness made him regain his composure. He expected her to smile and shake it off. He expected her to be her usual cheery self. But instead, she cried. The smile he expected wasn't there, everything was the exact opposite. Her eyes was filled with confusion and pain. Her mouth was slightly agape, allowing some of her tears to slip inside. Pure terror was all she felt. Did that mean..she was going to die now?

"Why? Have I not done enough to earn your affection? All I need is you to love me back but what's so hard about that!? What does she have? What can she do that I can't!?" She snapped.

Her eyes blurred and her nose ran, she clenched her heart and felt her throat become dry. Her eyes widened in realisation as she quickly apologised for her actions.

"I d-didn't mean to shout. I didn't mean to get mad at you! I just.." she trailed off. What excuse was she going to give now. Why was she trying to cover up even until now when it was clearly stated that he knew everything about how she felt. She was an open book to Katsuki. Yet she still wanted to fake her own emotions.

"(Name). If you think I was going to blow your ass up for yelling at me then you're damn right I would have if you weren't like this," He smirked, his grin fading after a few moments. "To be honest, I'd rather have you get mad me rather than hiding shit from me again."

Once again, the blond pulled her into another comforting hug. What else was he supposed to do? The only method of comfort he felt like would work was his embrace.

"I'm sorry,"

"Is it..who I think it is?" The pink haired girl held (Name)'s hand as she sobbed into a crumpled tissue. After a heartfelt conversation with Katsuki Bakugo, he left the girl alone to explain her own situation as he himself needed time. He knew she liked him. But why couldn't he tell he loved her right then and there? It's not like this heinous disease knew if his feelings were certain. It's not like he had to actually reciprocate her feelings to save her. All he had to do..was say it back..right?

So why didn't he tell her?

"I'm sorry," She mumbled. "Katsuki, I want you to think about your feelings. I don't want you to tell me that you love me if it's not real. I won't forgive you if you do. I have more time, so please, save me properly."