Love Last Forever...Or does it?

Chapter 12

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*Joes pov*

I walked back to the hotel feeling guilty as hell. Ashley hadnt kissed Louis and I hadnt trusted her I thought she would have kissed him and then they would  have walked away into the sunset (I know chiche) but it broke my heart just thinking about her kissing another guy I just couldnt bear it. i knew I didnt deserve a girl as good as Ashley someone so sweet and pretty I loved every part of her even her fawls her in abilty to make desicions, taking twenty minutes to do her hair each morning and the fact that she could never take a complement. I loved her even though she was so much better without me but I couldnt live without her she was my life.

I finally got back to my hotel room and opened the door to find a letter adressed to me it was in Ashleys hand writing. I quickley sat on my bed sat down and took a deep breath i then slowly opened the envolope. the letter read........

dear Joe,

i know we have had our ups and downs and up till now we have got over it but clearly the thought of me kissing another guy uoset you to so you have decied to leave me without even saying good bye but thats okay. you still mean the world to me but I get it I was just one of your experiments, a charity case......

she thought she was just an experment a joke but she couldnt be more wrong she was my life without her there was no me I needed her. she was gone. my heart broke and tears slid down my face adding more stains to the letter she had been crying as she wrote it and it was all my fault!!!!

.......... but you know what the worse thing about falling for a guy you know your not right for you fall anyway as you think he might be diffrent. you thought I wouldnt care that i would be gratefull that a popular guy wanted me but all its done is break my heart we where never meant to be Tessa was right you and her are the fairy tale couple the it girl with the it guy make sense right. dont worry about me a will be fine....after a while i hope but if im not dont worry its not your fault its mine for being stupid and thinking you might feel the same way about me as i do about you I know now i was just kidding myself.

goodbye Joe love you forever and always Ashley xxx

she thought I didnt love her and she was gone I might never see her again. I whipped away my tears and ran down to find mark and ask him about Ashley if I was ever going to see her again he had to know something where she was where she was going!?! something anything to help me get Ashley back.

"MARK!" I yelld when I saw him he truned aroud to face me " have you seen Ashley anywere!" I begged him " ummm yeah she left to go to new york about 2 hours ago why?" he asked " BEACAUSE I LOVE HER GOD DANM IT!!!" I screamed tears splling over once again " sorry mate she's gone" he said and walked off I stood there staring after him saying "no, no, no, no she cant be gone no, no, no!!" over and over again untill I could no longer speak I was in so much pain like a hole had been punched though my chest it was tourcher every second without her.

I will find her again and tell her I loved her even though according to all the papers me and Tessa where an 'item' I loved Ashley forever and always just like she loved me even though I had no right to deserve her love.

"c'mon guys back to work add break over!" mark called so we all hobled out the lobby and into the taxi to the airport. " you alright mate?" Louis asked looking conserned, he could tell something was up I hel Ashleys letter tighter in my hand and nodded in responce to Louis." if you say so" he mumbled under hid breath. " look Louis is great I mean Ashley ios gone and she was such an inconvince, not to mention a silly little charity case so why would Joey be upset I mean he has me, isnt that right Joey bear" Tessa said learning over and putting her arm around me, arrgg more stupid nicknames I ignored her persistent flirting and shurgged her arm off. I only had eyes for Ashley she had stolen my heart and when she left my heart dissapeared to . When she hadnt kissed Louis I felt so guilty as the night before I did something Ashley should hate me for.......

*Flashback*

I was so annoyed with ashley and Louis I had tottally stopped talking to them I mean my mate hooking up with my girl friend on national tv  right in front of me and I was meant to be okay with it! There was no one to talk to but Tessa who had the brain of a pea and constantly only thought about herself but it was better then moppin. so I went and knocked on Tessa's door and she she opened it smiling " heyy joey" omg she was so annoying I hated that nickname!! " hey Tessa do you want to go for a walk?" I asked kinda hopping she would say no and I could go back to sitting around mopping but of coourse not.... " of course joey I would love to thank godness you have seen how fun I am to hand out with let me just get my shoes" she smilied and skipped to go put her shoes on great...... Tesssa came back and grabbed my hand we left the hotel and walked down the high street I was thinking about how tomorrow Ashley was going to kiss Louis, so I got Tessa to come in a bar with me and I got absoulotley smashed trying to forget about all my worries but not even drink could make me forget about Ashley so as me and Tessa where walking back to the hotel I had a sudden erge to kiss Tessa and I follwed it I was so hammered I had no clue as to what I was doing, I spun Tessa around and kissed her on the lips she smilied " I knew you wanted me more then Ashley" she whispered aganist my lips but she was wrong that wasnt true I loved Ashley she we had ups and downs but we where meant to be together....wait why the hell was I stood here kissing Tessa " I cant do this I said and pulled away. omg what had I DONE!!!!!

*End of flashback*

I was so guilty and there Ashley was  was thinking she was the bad guy. I only kissed Tessa as I was so drunk and I guess apart of me wanted to get back at Ashley for kissing Louis which she didnt even end up doing! she wouldnt cheat on me not even if it meant that she would get kicked of the trip which had been he dream since she was four and I had ruined it! this was all my fault I wished Ashley would keeep her dream alive and travell around the world with her mates, I promised to myself that I would see her again and apoligize I would tell ashley everything and beg for her forgiveness I promised myself I would see Ashley again no matter what.

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