Love Last Forever...Or does it?

chapter 18

*warning this chapter contains mature content I will warn you guys when its coming up so if you don't want to read it just Skip it*

Joe's PoV

she looked up hesitantly like she was unsure weather to tell me. "you know you can tell me anything right?" I said trying to reassure her. she nodded slightly still not speaking "I-I don't really know how to say this but I'm scared, that if I don't tell you Tessa will find out and then tell you or worse the press" she mumbled refusing to look at me I was really curious on what she had to say.

"if you found out that I have lied to you about something, something big but I only didn't telly you the truth because I was scared that you would leave me, but now I'm even more scared and I have to tell someone.." she trailed off. 

okay now I was so confused "no matter what it is I will always love you don't ever doubt that" I told her truthfully looking into her eyes.

Ashley's PoV

I felt tears brim up in my eyes as I thought about that night, I had come home from a party with tears streaming down my face Blake had tried to see if  I was okay but I just locked my self in my room and refused to come out for days, Blake would leave food outside my door as I refused to talk to anyone I shut myself away from the world in fear of getting hurt eventually my mum and dad came home after their 'Holiday' and forced me to go to school. When I did everyone was wondering where I had been for the past 3 weeks I just shrugged it off. 

Madz got everyone to shut up and soon it dyed down. but it took me a lot longer to get over it after about three months things slowly went back to normal but it was never the same I still had nightmares and flashbacks but soon they went away.

it had been three years, it had happened when I was sixteen and I still got the occasional nightmare but most of the time I was fine. now I needed to tell someone as I couldn't hold it in any longer I trusted Joe so I decided he should know I mean he needed to know.

but I was scared if I told him he would hate me but I had to tell him, and I would I would tell him the whole story. "Ash?" Joe asked waving his hand in front of my face and I realised I had been daydreaming for quite a while "oh sorry" I mumbled I couldn't look at him. I was disgusted in myself "when I was 16, Tessa had a party she invited everyone including me. We were just messing about drinking and having fun..." I stopped to take a deep breath as tears flowed out of my eyes. 

Joe pulled me close and hugged me tightly "shh its okay, you don't have to tell me" he whispered "no I'm fine.." I mumbled. he gave me a questioning look and I smiled shyly back he rolled his eyes waiting for me to continue "when David, who was a senior at the time pulled me to the side and began leading me up stairs, I asked him where we were going but he said he wanted to show me something so I followed him up the stairs and into one of the bed rooms. when we went in there he locked the door and came to sit on the bed with me....... 

*FLASHBACK* (mature content)

he walked over to the bed and sat opposite me "so what is it you wanted to show me?" I asked raising my eyebrows he smirked and lent froward and began to kiss me hungrily I smiled he was a senior and he was kissing me! we pulled apart and I giggled "do you like what I wanted to 'show' you so far?" he asked and I nodded.

"well that's good, now why don't you tale of your shoes and get comfy?" he asked I did what he said not really thinking about it as I was a little tipsy. he then took of his shoes and his top I raised an eyebrow at him "what are you doing?" I asked "just getting comfy" he shrugged "how about you are you comfy enough?" he asked kissing me again and leaving a trail of kisses down my neck I nodded unsure of where this was going.