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12|𝔹𝕒𝕔𝕜 𝕥𝕠 𝕪𝕠𝕦

December 20
Jules leblanc

It was December 20th, five more days till Christmas. I wasn't really excited since you know..the situation with John, its been about a week since that happened and Lauren told me that he hasn't been taking it well and hes close with Emily again like they used to when they were kids.

She also told me that they broke up  I was lowkey happy but surprised I didnt think they would've, I was also told by Lauren that john got into a fight a couple days ago with Hayden..

Hes in the hospital right now, lauren says. I've been staying with my friend Jayden, shes been helping me trying to get over Johnny but it wasnt working, I just wanted to run up to him and kiss him, I wanna feel his soft lips press against mine just one more time.

It felt like a break up but we weren't even together, it felt like I was punched in the heart but I didnt have one for leaving him, he said he loved me and I loved him, but it wasnt going to work out since Emily practily wanted to kill me.

I was really happy she let me explain, but she understood um side of the story. And it was true it was my fault i shouldn't have went to johns little "thinking spot" i then thought about the thinking spot and decided to go their.

It was the most beautiful place you could say, it was full of little snowflakes everywhere the tiny snowman with the lake as a skating rink, the water had turned into solid ice.

I snapped out of my thoughts and got up ignoring my friend Jayden, I grabed my jacket and ran out to the "spot" I saw a figure sitting down with his feet dangling off the bridge leading its head against the wall full of icy flowers.

I didn't say anything I just sat next to the person, I honestly didn't know who it was at all.

I sat down and laid my head on the persons shoulder giving me flashbacks on he day I met John.

I then took a deep breathe to inhale the sent of nature but I inhaled a fimular sent that I knew from anywhere.

It was johnny, I lifted my head off of his shoulder and looked at him and noticed he was staring at this one flower in the middle of the frozen lake.

It was unique and the last one standing. I turned my gaze back to Johnny and he turned to look at me.

As soon as he saw who I was his eyes slowly widened. "J-jules, what are you doing here?" He asked and I noticed his dry tears still on his face.

"I came here to think but you were here to.." I said and slowly got up. "I'll leav-"  I started off but he cut me off.

"No no please stay, I wanna talk.." he said with pleading eyes. I gave in and sat back down next to him.

"Why do you keep doing it jules, its obviously hurting the both of us, and you know it is.."  he said and the amount of hurt you could hear in hsi voice would make you cry instantly.

I decided to hold in my tears tho. "I did it because I'm not doing good enough, I'm doing it because I know theirs someone out there better then me, I'm doing it because I'm traumatized, I'm doing it so Asher wont hurt you, I'm doing it because I love you..". I said and let a single tear fall. 

I felt his strong arms pull me into a hug as I cried into his chest, his soothing words slowly calming me down. 

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"Its okay I promise.." he said above a whisper. I slowly nodded and I couldn't help myself I kissed him, it was something I am wanted to do for a while now, I kissed his lips, I missed being in his arms, i missed the little notes he used to leave got me, i missed hearing his voice, i missed everything about him.

He slowly kissed back pulling me closer to him, I slowly pulled away and placed my head on his chest and he said, "please dont leave me again, I need you.." he said above a whisper.

"I promise I won't..." I said and he kissed my forehead, leaving just the two of us admiring the icy places beauty, the way the string lights hung loosely around the white trees covered in snow.

I felt his arms wrap around me a little tighter and he buried he head in my neck. "I missed you.." he said wich caused me to smile. " I missed you way more.." I said. "That's impossible.." he said and lifted up his head giving me a soft kiss on the lips.

He slowly pulled away and whispered in my ear, "I love you so much jules.." he said sending chills through my body, "I love you more.." I said and laid my head back down and he started to slowly play with my hair as snowflakes fell from the white sky..