You calmed the Chaos (Sapnap x Karl)

Day 5

Karl Pov

God damn it

How could I let myself be so stupid?

I met this guy like a day ago, now I'm parked in a Walmart parking lot trying not to wake him. It was 1 am now, it was clear he needed to sleep. I wonder when the last time he slept was. I turned slightly so I was looking at him. He seemed to twitch a lot, only now did I notice the tears.

He was crying?

In his sleep...

I didn't really know what to do. I was already terrified because of the night. How every little noise I heard made me jump. I couldn't take my eyes off the darkness surrounding the parking lot. All I wanted to do was wake up the man laying behind me. With him, I felt safe. Besides he was having a nightmare. I quickly climbed on the middle console. I was crouched, my head almost hitting the ceiling. I put a hand lightly on his shoulder shaking him slightly.

"Sapnap. Hey wake up," I kept my voice soft, as to not startle him. His dark eyes shot open, they were still filled with tears. He sat up, pulling me into a hug. I was shocked at first stiffening my body. I heard muffled sobs coming from my chest. I awkwardly put a hand on his shoulder rubbing circles on his back.

After a moment he pushed away from me, he looked away apologizing. "Oh my gosh, I'm so sorry. No one is ever thereafter I have a nightmare I just- I'm so sorry I-"

"It's alright," I looked away climbing back into the driver's seat. "Want to talk about it?"

Sapnap climbed into the passenger seat, looking out the window. He shook his head, biting the inside of his lip. I stayed silent, I didn't want to force him to talk. Besides he was my home for the month. I didn't want to start any unnecessary drama.

I found myself glancing his way often. His hair was all messy, a typical bedhead. It was cute... WHAT THE HONK! I slapped my hand to my mouth, quickly looking out my window to hide the blush I knew I was sporting.

"You okay?" Sapnap's voice was caring. I chuckled slightly nodding.

"Yea."

I'm so dumb. I'm not straight, at least I don't think I am.

I've known for a while that I liked men and women, but I've never had an experience with a male. Not romantically at least. Maybe I was just lying to myself. I did have to say that Sapnap was a sight. I liked the name Sapnap. I don't know why but the nickname just seemed warm and inviting. He seemed warm and inviting.

We spent the next hour in silence. I had worked myself into a panic though. I had missed my mum. To be completely honest she knew a whole bunch about everything, I could come to her for advice and she'd have a good answer. She'd hold me while I cried, and most of all she'd be the one to tell me when I was being dumb. I shifted slightly, opening my bag. I pulled out the Teddy bear, hoping Sap didn't notice.

I pulled the bear to my chest, pulling in its scent. I let a few tears spill, finally letting myself be vulnerable for a moment. only a moment.

"Why'd you decide to help me?" I said, almost without realizing it. Sapnap turned to look at me, he thought over my question for a moment.

"You just seemed... different... I don't know honestly."

I searched his dark eyes for something. He just smiled, I could tell he was hiding something. I couldn't quite figure it out. I couldn't pull my eyes away from his though. The brown had a slight twinge of gold. They looked like they smelled of honey. They reminded me of the summers you'd spend camping with your family. The memories, the nostalgia. Though as I gazed into his eyes all I could see was... well... something I've never felt before. To be completely honest I didn't really know what I was feeling.

It was like something out of a book. It was almost like lightning, or sparks. Where just instantly, I knew he was different. It was silly, thinking that I could get all of this out of a single moment. I felt so stupid. So... Disgusting almost. I was better than this. Falling for a stranger, Someone who no matter what I would have to be around.

Sapnap was the first to break eye contact, his eyes darting out onto the cement of the parking lot. I felt my face heat up, and an uncontrollable smile dance on my lips. I pulled the sweatshirt I was wearing into hoodie-paws. I placed the om my face, hiding my blush, and smile.

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SwIpNiP's pov

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Shit

fuck

shit

ahh

That didn't just happen. It couldn't have. It was only seen in books. We didn't spark, did we? We couldn't have. I hated to admit it, especially to myself, but I was the biggest hopeless romantic. I read the cheesy love stories. I put up this tough act but, in all reality, I was soft on the inside. They called it a spark. When you look into the eyes of your soulmate and it's all most like lightning, you are so drawn into them it's like you couldn't leave.

I was foolish for believing in something so silly, but what just happened couldn't have been faked. I truly believe though, that no matter what I've read, that the feelings couldn't be reciprocated.

We spent the rest of the day just talking and debating what to do. We decided to drive about an hour out to the top of the cliff where we could watch the sunset. I was cheesy like that. I liked the little things, like sunsets and satisfying noises. Don't get me wrong though, killing people in Minecraft was one of my favorite things to do. I may seem wholesome, but once you truly get to know me, you almost wish you hadn't.

We were now parked atop the cliff. The sun had begun to set. It was prettier up here than it was in Texas. maybe it was the company...

I felt something land on my shoulder and I looked over at Karl, he had pulled the middle console to sit up, creating almost another seat. He also had his head on my shoulder. I blushed, smiling stupidly. Before we knew it, it was pitch blackout. I heard growls every little bit, but most were either too far away for me to care, or they were just wild animals.

I felt a weird feeling in my soul. It was almost like I had a sense of purpose. Something to go on for. I was always hard on myself and I often had... Those... kinds of thoughts, but now? Now I felt like I had a reason. Even if it was small and the likely hood of this happening was about 1 in a million it was something.

With that, I conclude day 5
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Lowkey though I need some ideas for filler chapters. I have an idea of where it's going, but I need one or two Ideas YK.

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