I said I needed space

7. Work

I SAID I NEEDED SPACE~ CHAPTER 7:

~~Work ~~

INTRO:

"The bacon smell is making me sick," I say

"Why, you love bacon?" Jake replies

"I don't know, it's disgusting," I say back and I clamp my nose shut

"Don't be dramatic" Billie says handing forks to all of the kids

I gag running to the sink where I empty all of the built-up acid I have in my stomach

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THE LIGHT COMING from the curtains that I forgot to fully close the night before shines bright, in my eyes causing me to wake up. I open one eye and scowl Ava is snuggled in the crook of my arm beside me and Lola is in her baby pack n play, her eyes open but she is staring at the roof.

I look to my right at the clock and it reads 8 am, which is surprising as all 3 girls are usually awake by now downstairs demanding breakfast, but I don't get any further, because the slight I fee, nausea becomes worse by the second until I can feel bile in the back of my throat. I jump up and run to the bathroom, I finish vomiting and I sit up against the sink.

This is starting to get old, every morning vomiting. I flush the toilet and I brush my teeth before both girls are wide awake and I can hear bustling in the kitchen. I bring them both down and get them started on eating.

I set Lola in her high chair with some pancakes and Ava with some cheerios

"Good morning Sass," I say kissing her before I greet everyone "Why are you here already," I say to Ally and Jake

"Eh, the kids were up early," they say and I pick Ellie up for a quick squeeze

"The bacon smell is making me sick," I say

"Why, you love bacon?" Jake replies

"I don't know, it's disgusting," I say back and I clamp my nose shut

"Don't be dramatic" Billie says handing forks to all of the kids

"I swear," I say before I feel the non-existent food in my stomach start to come back up and I gag running to the sink where I empty all of the built-up acids I have, Ally who was flipping pancakes is by my side rubbing my back, whilst I finish throwing up, and I wipe my mouth

"Fuck, this is the second time today," I say

"Are you okay crazy?" Billie says

"I have no idea" I reply

"Are you pregnant?" Jake asks

"No," I say back instantly

"Is Aunty Avie pregnant?" Jamie says

"Uh No Aunty Avie isn't" I reply and I take the glass of water that Ally hands me and I run it through my teeth, spitting it out.

"Oh we need a baby soon Lola is getting big" she replies and I ruffle her hair, picking Lola up out of her highchair

"This chicky needs a bath" I reply "Are you guys good to look after these 2?"

"Yes, go bath her" they reply and I smile gratefully, running up the stairs to brush my teeth for the second time today and to bathe my daughter

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"Okay, now you girls sit tight, mummy will only be a second," I say to the 2 out of 3 little girls that belong to me, landing on their program of choice

"Otay mummy," Saskia says digging her tiny hand into the snack cup, that I just filled

"Are you coming back?" Ava asks me her eyes welling with tears

"Of course baby, I just have to do some work for a bit" I reply and I hand her, her snack cup

"OTAY!" she says and she kicks her legs and I smile kissing her nose

"Now if you hear Lolly come and get mummy," I say to the 2 girls glancing to my right where Lola is sound asleep in the pack n play. I grab the baby monitor that I just placed down here just in case, and I walk into the study/our makeshift bedroom

"Alright, Avery, you can do this," I say sitting down crossing my legs, taking a deep breath, and I take out my little video camera setting it up in front of me, I check to make sure everything is in order before I press record

"Hey, guys... long time no see..." I say chuckling to the camera in front of me, and god have I missed recording and uploading

Before I started this baby project, I didn't really know what I wanted to do with my life, the 2 options that I had was, a teacher, or a nurse, I had decent enough grades to get into both courses, but as a side project, I started a blog. Which I updated every week sometimes twice, I filled it with random things, from what I ate during the day to tips on how to study, or make your room look half decent when you are a slob, and I grew quite a following.

I guess partaking in a project created by the government which involves looking after small children for 9 months, whilst attending school is very interesting, which doubled, then tripled my following until I had over a million subscribers.

I then changed my blog to 'Avie's life through everyone's life' which I had Grayson writing stories for, Billie, Jake and even a view from my parents. This was another source of income for Grayson I me which helped us save a ton. Anyways I had a few pre-done posts and videos to post, as I am still a coffee shop manager, and a full-time mother, which I have used over the past few weeks whilst I have been depressed and sick.

With my pre-recorded videos completely gone, I have decided to take a break until I can get my life together which is why I am making a short video explaining to my following that I am just taking a break, and I will explain more after. Talking about Grayson hurts too much and not to mention my constant nausea and food aversions.

I am still the manager at my beloved coffee shop, where I work 3-4 days a week plus my extra time that I have to take to make schedules, buy ingredients, pay people etc, however, I had way too many paid leave days so I have been taking those off and just doing my managing things from home.

"This is not goodbye forever, it's just for a small-time!" I say and I fake a smile through my watery eyes "Now stay safe, and I love you all from the bottom of my heart!" I reply and I click the record button and sigh, wiping my eyes.

I quickly watch my 7-minute video before I make a few cuts, once I am satisfied I click the upload button, I wait a short 3 minutes before it is uploaded, before I shut my laptop and walk back down the stairs to my 3 girls, and sandwich myself between my 2 oldest children, and we continue to watch Peppa Pig.

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WARNING:

this story will contain:

---- Swearing (which may cause offense)

---- Sexual content (as in references ya nasties)

----Moments that you will either laugh or scream

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