Episodes Of The Children

Those Who Howl

Episode 1: They'll always be with you

she laid in the middle of the dark space, curling in on herself, hoping for the voices to leave her mind and let her have peace for a night. maybe. hopefully. She hopes that one day, she can finally have the happiness she's always seen others enjoying...but that doesn't appear to be a possibility for her...she's been through so much and gained so much strength from it, but she hasn't figured out how to get that happiness back for herself...she doesn't think she'll ever find that for herself again...She had been crying for what seemed to be hours at this point..

Rocko: "milady...get up, c'mon, you need to go help the kids. Be the mother they know and miss."

Izzy: "you know that's not possible...plus, how would I be able to see you if I didn't have these moments..?"

Rocko: "you know you can visit anytime you'd like, but your family needs you...both of you...they need you at your best."

Izzy: "that's also not a possibility and you know that too. I'll never be able to go back to how I was before, I'll forever be an empty shell of an alpha..no one can change that..no matter how hard they may try.."

silence fell between the two for a moment

Rocko: "you'll be back to yourself in time...you can either work to get there or let the kids and Deronn help you...there are some things you can't do on your own.."

Izzy: "I have to! I need to show them I can be just as strong and as brave as anybody else!! You don't get it Rocko.."

Rocko: "that's the thing milady...i won't be able to understand unless you tell me what's going on"

Izzy: "you wouldn't understand either way.."

Rocko: "but I want to understand...myself and the others would like to help get you back to being yourself again, they want their mother back..!!"

Izzy: "you can't always get what they want!! Sometimes you just have to live with the things that god decides to give you...you don't always have a choice in most things...and you can't always save everybody"

memories of losing her parents, along with most of her pack appear around them, playing back everything that had happened before disappearing and being replaced with new ones from old fights she's had with others. Including Deronn and DJ.

Izzy: "I'm just the cause of everyone's death...I'll only end up hurting the kids...they deserve to have a better mother anyway. I was never fit for the role in first place. I don't think i ever will be.."

Rocko: "excuse my language for a moment if you will milady, but you are one of the best fucking mothers those kids have ever had. You were there for them when they were losing their father all those times. It seems you helped them more than anyone. Just ask my master, you know he'd never lie to you."

she began crying harder, memories of the deaths that had occurred in other timelines. Most of them being herself and Deronn.  Voice of Irene: "hey...hey! Honey it's ok...you're going to be ok..i promise.."

Izzy slowly looked up

Izzy: "mom..? How are you here..? Where did Rocko go..?"

Irene: "that doesn't matter, we only have a limited amount of time together...now, take a deep breath for me, try to calm yourself."

Izzy nodded, doing as her mother her said, whilst hugging her

Izzy: "I'm so so sorry mom..i should've fought harder to protect everyone...instead of being a weak piece of garbage and hiding behind the males.."

Irene: "I told them to stay in front of you..i could never live with losing my child again...but i guess that decision backfired on me."

Izzy: "no no, mom it's fine! I shouldn't have even gone outside, I should've listened to you and stayed inside with the pups.."

Irene: "it doesn't matter anymore, what's done is done. No point in looking back on it anymore."

Izzy: "mom, is dad ok..? He still angry with me..?"

Irene: "he'll get over it, nobody could've known this was going to happen"

Izzy: "i still feel like there's more i could've done.."

everything went silent, Irene disappeared leaving behind only a blanket from Izzy's childhood

  Izzy: "I'm sorry guys..i should've tried harder.."

~ End of Episode ~