When You Came

Chapter 27

I continued strolling the streets of Seoul and admiring the night sky. I just didn't want to go back to the hotel and face my family. Or whatever they are to me right now. I know for a fact that a family is supposed to stand by you. They call you out on your wrongs and they change them together as a whole. But my family didn't do that. No one stood up for my father's wrongdoings. They sided him and left me alone and helpless. They made me think that I was the crazy one. That I was the one who was wrong. Did I want to continue being apart of a family like this?

I could move out. But live where?

I could live with Amy. But I've learned that best friends shouldn't live together. I remember Amy and I once went on a staycation and we both had a small fight. It was over something as petty as hogging the bathroom. I've learned from that moment onwards that if two people wanted to stay best friends then they shouldn't live together. Ever.

I could live on my own? Damn even in my thoughts I wasn't sure of myself. I've had some savings but I think they would just be able to cover the deposit of the place.

Noah is out of the question because we just started dating and it's not even a week yet. I don't want things between us to move too fast. I really like him and I want to cherish every moment with him but I fear that moving in with him so fast would just be plain weird. He would think that I'm some crazy girl that wants to get married at 19 and have ten babies by the time I'm 30.

Moving out for now was not an option. I sighed at that thought. I really didn't want to stay in a house where I wasn't appreciated. It feels like I'm the only one that actually cares about my family's image. The irony.

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I continued walking around and stumbled across a park. There were only a few people there considering it was already nightfall. I went and saw a swing and sat on it. I wish I was a kid again. I wish I didn't know anything. I remember when I was a kid I used to want to grow up fast, can't wait to do grown up stuff like drive a car, go to parties earn some money. But now... I just want to turn back time and take it all back. I would savor every waking moment of being a kid. No worries, no responsibilities. I kicked my legs up so that the swing moved backwards and continued the motion, just sitting on the swing swinging. The cold wind rushing when I swing backwards was thrilling.

After awhile my legs got tired and I eventually stopped kicking and just let the swing sway until there was no more force left and it stopped on its own. I sighed, looking at my phone and saw that it was already 10p.m.

I guess I gotta go back to the hotel now...

I decided to catch a cab back to the hotel. From where I was it would take at least an hour tops. I sat at the back of the cab and listened to the low music being played on the radio. Slowly, I drifted off to sleep.

"Agassi." I felt someone nudge me. (Young lady.)

"Shh..." I silenced them.

"Excuse me?" The sound of a very old raspy man's voiced jolted me up. I looked around and found that we've arrived.

Shit.

I paid the man and got off the cab and with heavy footsteps made my way to the room.

I got into the elevator scanned my room card and pressed my level button. There was only me and the sound of the jazz music playing through the speakers in the elevator.

The elevator dinged, a sign that I've reached my floor and the doors opened. What I saw before me was not what I expected to see. Ever.

It was red. There was so much red.