Lovers' Lane

119

I wasted no time and left the condo immediately. The girls texted me if nakaalis na daw ba ako and I asked them how did they know and they said lang na it was our last day so they assumed na we would go out.

I checked my messages before heading out. I tapped Brent's message and read it.

BRENT
last day niyo
ngayon 'diba?

goodluck, bespren

sana maganda ang
kalabasan!

Pinagdasal ko kayo
kay santo tomas kahit
hindi naman ako tiga
uste HAHAHAHAHA

LUCIANA
thanks, stoopid!

enjoy your date!

BRENT
ANONG DATE

baka gusto mong
masapak

LUCIANA
i know it's a date

don't worry, I
won't judge.

'di ako judgerist

ikaw lang

And he left me on read. I laughed after saying goodbye to him. Want to know the girl that he was seeing? Hmm. It was for you to find out.

I rode my car to go to UST. Buti wala akong pasok ngayong araw and I presume Matthew also did not have any classes. He did not text me any good mornings. I texted him that I was on my way to UST but I hadn't received any replies.

It took me half an hour to get there because of the traffic. I parked my car inside UST kasi ang init para maglakad pa. I fixed myself first before heading out.

I walked slowly, trying to think of what to say to Matthew before I get there. I was really nervous. This moment was so nerve-wracking. His actions last night gave me hope.

Hope that he also feels the same way.

Would a month be enough to make someone fall for you? Was it enough for me to show how much I loved him? Or did I even successfully show him my love?

What ifs started to dominate my thoughts. I was slowly eaten up by negativity. This was my first time feeling that way. I had always been positive and had a good outlook on everything but this was one that was different.

I arrived at Lovers' Lane and saw nothing. Matthew was still not there. I went to the spot where we were supposed to meet where I saw Brent instead of Matthew.

I walked around and sat down on the bench. I noticed a note on the bench that was tightly plastered.

"I'm sorry."

I'm sorry?

Was it from Matthew?

I double-checked the note, wishing it hadn't come from him. It must not come from him. Not now, please. I turned it over and saw a different message.

"I'm sorry, Luciana. Wala talaga."

I took his words in, allowing them to sink in. Refusing to accept everything had ended too soon. I sighed in disbelief. That was so simple. 

We were so happy last night. We were both enjoying ourselves last night. We had spoken about our plans and everything all evening, and most importantly, I didn't expect everything to end in tragedy.

Were we going to end this just like that? No proper goodbyes? Just these damned notes?

Why are you so cruel?

My lips instantly trembled as I felt something warm running down my cheeks. I lowered the cap that I was wearing so people won't see me in this state. I covered my mouth with my hands to stop myself from sobbing.

This hurts so much.

But I shouldn't complain. Right?

I was the one who got this deal initiated. I was a persistent one. I was the one who pushed myself to him, knowing still that he was not yet prepared to get into a relationship. I was the one who thought that if I pushed through this deal, we could be a thing.

And it came to an abrupt end before I realized it. 

It was over.

My brighter days had ended. 

Our yet to begin love story was over before it even started.

this is such a
crappy chap.
but I hope
you will enjoy
it huhuhuhu

and idk if this
will be a happy
ending. hehe.
don't kill me.