Ghosts Aren't Real. sapnap

19. its gonna be ok

TW // DEATH AND DISASSOCIATION, if you're uncomfy with these things skip the chapters with TWS and I will make a summary when it's over :-)

I place the cat food in the bowl and flop down on the couch. My head pounding from the events of the past day.

“I leave in 2 days.” I sigh. I lay down on Nick's bed. He's streaming bedwars with ‘the boys’ also known as Dream, George and Bad.

“Bad! Bad! Bad! On me! On me!” Nick yells, catching my attention.

“Chill Nicholas.” I joke walking over by him. “It’s just a game.” He laughs at my statement.

“Ok but when we are in the dream smp is it still ‘just a game?’” He asks. I lean down and look at his monitor.

“Ok but when we are playing bedwars is it still ‘just a game’” I ask using air quotes
mocking him. The boys laugh on stream and his face goes red. “Thats what I thought… sippy cup.” He looks over at me in shock, laughing at me.

“Wow thats a lot of talk from a girl who believes in ghosts.” He says, I take a step back. Did he not see what happened the other night?! I rolled my eyes laughing.

“Thats not what Roberto says…” I walk out of the room eyes tearing up. “I just made a joke about my dead father…” I get a drink of water and try to shake off the feeling, I feel light, distant? It doesn't feel like I'm connected to my body… the world around me goes dark and I just stand there. I watch everything happen around me, with no control over what I do.

3rd person POV

Alex just sits there. She sobbed. Her head laid in her hands crying. She never got to say goodbye to her father. The only person who believed in her dreams. 6 months after the death she finds someone who makes her truly happy. She feels broken and alone. Regardless of the thousands of people that follow her and the dozens she has made friends with. The one person
she wants to talk to won't understand. He just isn't what she thought he would be like. Or she was wrong and he would understand completely. The girl's judgment has been off since the night. Nick walks out into the kitchen to see Alex sobbing on the floor. He sits next to her holding her hand.

“It's gonna be ok.” He whispers as he traces small circles on her hand. Soon after everything in Alex’s vision goes dark. She fell asleep quietly in Nicks grasp. He is aware of what had happened. His mother told him, her thinking that it would be best if he knew.

Sapnap

I understand why she didn't tell me but.. I could’ve helped her. I sat there with her in my arms. I pick her up and lay her down on my bed. Kissing her forehead before shutting the light off and closing the door. “What is she going to do without me…?” I ask myself. The night was late so I sat on the couch watching youtube on the TV. I text the ‘boys’ in a panic. I don't know what to do.

{nick sapnap} guys i have an issue and i need you guys
{piss pants} whats up?
{gogy} huh
{bad muffin} George stop sleeping during the day
{nick sapnap} well something happened… uh so hypothetically what if some died and your family didn't tell you? how do you react to that
{gogy} thats fucked up to do?! uh myself I would just cry and shut everyone out
{piss pants} WHAT
{bad muffin} dude you need to explain on that
{nick sapnap} ok so Alex’s dad died and her family didn't tell her…
{bad muffin} Just be there for her. Show her you care.
{piss pants} oh… just tell ghost I love her please
{piss pants} /p of course

I shut my phone off and try to think of what to do. Alex didn't deserve for this to be happening to her. It seems like it came straight out of a book. I leave the TV playing and start to make a bed on the couch. I decided to let Alex have some space. I bring my blanket up to my chin and fall asleep quickly. Letting my uncontrollable dreams take over.

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Kades thoughts
WOW. I hate this chapter sm, I'm sorry if the dissosation isnt how most people experience it. It's how I have so I wanted to try and write it. I didnt like how it turned out but you guys deserve more chapters so here you go <3