Saviors [GiyuShino] [Apocolypse AU]

Chapter Eleven: Done

A/N: I am so so so sooooo sorry I haven't updated sooner but I've literally been so busy with school and other stuff and I haven't had time to write. But here's chapter eleven!

"Why? Why do you want to sacrifice yourself so badly?" Tomioka asks, palms pressing into my shoulder blades painfully.

I sigh, placing my own hands firmly on his shoulders and flipping us over so that he's pinned beneath me. "Tell me what I can live for." I say, knowing that my fake smile has turned sardonic. "My girls can take care of each other. They don't need me anymore. It's true that I do want to watch them grow up and get married, but they're going to end up leaving me behind. I know how selfish I am for wanting to keep them close. I know. But those girls are all I have left. They're my life. I'm terrified of losing them."

Tomioka's mouth opens and closes, much like a fish, speechless. He doesn't know what to say. As expected. He never does.

I laugh, the sound bitter and hollow. "Let me save them, Captain, please. That's all I'm asking for. Please don't stop me." My lips are still curled, though now the curve is softer, sadder. "I only want to make myself useful. I've been useless my entire life. At least let me be useful in death."

The silence is deafening, though it only lasts for a moment.

"You're a doctor."

"What?"

"You're a doctor." He repeats, looking deep into my eyes.

"And?" I ask, quirking an eyebrow, pursing my lips as I wait for him to continue.

"You've saved many lives. More than I probably have in my entire life." He twirls around his finger a strand of my hair, which I now realize has fallen out of it's usual hairstyle, my butterfly pin lying a foot away from where we lie, and I let him. His touch doesn't feel like something I should slap away, unlike all of the other men that I've encountered. But I don't lean in to his hand. "And you're still so young. You can still save so many more. Sacrificing yourself would condemn them to death. We'll find a way to defeat our enemy without sacrificing you. We can still send the girls to the Capitol."

I chuckle again, gazing down at the numerous badges on the front of his uniform, absentmindedly, I trace them with my fingers, barely noticing how his next exhale is shaky and he stiffens up, almost as if he's trying not to make me stop. "Maybe you're right." I glance back up at him. "I don't have to decide right now, do I?"

He shakes his head as a response, and I let my shoulders droop. "Then let's save the rest of this discussion for another time, shall we," I stroke his collarbone as I get to my feet, and his cheeks tint pink as he lets out another tense breath. "Captain?"

"Okay." Is all he says, and he quickly composes himself, jumping quickly to a standing position and dusting off his uniform. I don't know what he was thinking when he blushed at me, but I'm not about to ask.

"Thank you." I nod at him, my signature vacant smile returning to my face and turn, heading back to the others at a brisk pace, smile growing just a bit wider when I hear him increase his pace to keep up.

A/N: I'm sorry it was so short, but I didn't have much time to write today, and I didn't want to add too much extra stuff in this chapter. Thank you for reading! :)