ʳ. ᵗᵃⁿᵃᵏᵃ 𝘏𝘌𝘈𝘛𝘏𝘌𝘙

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You were completely out of it. Your crippling caffeine addiction didn't seem to help in the moments you needed it most since the two venti caramel iced coffees you had bought during lunch time were not at all keeping you up.

Your math teachers spoke so fucking slow that you only assumed you couldn't be the only student falling asleep from boredom in the class.

And you weren't wrong

You forced your heavy ass head to turn around and check on Noya and Tanaka who were both completely knocked out on the table-desk they shared. Noya's slobber was all over Tanaka's sleeve and well, Tanaka, who slept with his mouth open would make the hairs on top of noyas head move every time he exhaled.

it hurt your heart each time you saw him. you've got to figure out a way to somehow fall out of love with him quick, before it ruins you more than it already has．

<333

Your classes for the day were over now and you definitely weren't looking forward to the loads of homework you had to hand in for tomorrow.

getting your books that you needed to study with out of your locker, a soft voice spoke behind you-Tanaka of course.

"h-hey y/n, I needed to know if we were good, like, on good terms y'know cuz since that day you um..confessed to me you've been super distant-" you shut your locker door hard, interrupting him, you turned around and let out an exaggerated sigh,

"we're fine ryu, it doesn't matter, I can't force you to return the same feelings so...i just have to learn how to deal with the heart wrenching pain I feel every time I see you, and the boiling jealousy I feel when I see...her",

He looked so sorry for you, and that was one thing you hated most, you hated it when people  pretend like as if they could have done something to help you, you hated when people felt sorry for shit you caused.

If only you had just shut your mouth that evening. This was proof that even in the most difficult situations, listening to your head instead of your heart is always the safest way to go, you just wish it didn't have to be that way.

he was still standing in front of you, palms sweating, playing with his fingers, not sure what to say to make you 'feel better'.

"well, I've got a bus to catch Tanaka, and i'm pretty sure you're late for practice, dont keep your pretty manager kiyoko waitin'" and with that, you walked passed him, leaving all thoughts behind, simply focusing on what you hoped to be a better tomorrow.

"I hate it here"．
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super short filler  chapter I know but i'm honestly going through so much shit so don't rush me to update lol. i'm updating two chapters tomorrow for you guys. hope you guys are doing okay :) don't forget to vote and comment!! kisses babes <3 also don't forget to follow me on instagram and dm me for book or chapter requests :)) @sleepysinz on insta :3